Two-faced people suck
So I have been missing in action for a while and I apologize for those of you who have been trying to get in touch and I haven't responded. Been crazy busy and my life is really good.
I want to take a moment to explain that for a while there things were not so good. With the help of some pretty amazing people that I consider very good friends, I got through it. I was hanging out for a long time with Cleveland, who I considered to be a very close friend. He had some tendencies to become very aggressive and angry. It was a problem for me because he directed it very specifically at me. He had a short fuse and it interfered with our friendship. I tried talking to him about several times and he would always apologize and I would always forgive. He would even tell me how good those conversations were for him because it made him realize he wanted to be a better person. Unfortunately, just before Christmas, he snapped at me for no reason and I had it. I wanted to get to the bottom things and really lay the cards out on the table. Sadly, he didn't. When I made a comment to him about how he was always so considerate and helpful, yet he had trouble showing love and no trouble showing hate, he snapped again. Somehow this comment led him to feel it was necessary to become physically violent and assaulted me. At first I was very sorry for saying something that made him angry. Then I realized after a few days that I was blaming myself for his own insecurities and decided to end the friendship. It was really easy to come to that decision but I did not realize how bad of an aspect he was in my life until he was gone. I had to. He was a different person when other people were around and it hurt. I cut him out of my life completely and I feel so much better for it now. In retrospect, I should not have put up with so much shit for so long, but that's just me. Dumb and trusting. So his angry violence ended up hurting my neck pretty severely. I had problems with my neck and shoulder for months. I have just now fully recovered and have no more pain when I turn my head. First time in months I was able to do this was last week. He is twice my size and just an over all bully. I don't even think he cares that he is in the wrong about this. He always justifies his horrible actions if he knows there is no chance to make them better. The last time I talked to him back in December, he actually said that I had pushed him too far. No matter how much someone is annoying you about an issue they have with you, it is never ok to lay a hand on them. Especially someone you care about. Anyway, I wanted to explain that because some of you have known us to be friends and I didn't want there to be any confusion as to why that isn't true anymore. But like I said my life has vastly improved and there are so many amazing things happening for me these days... I will post about that next. Just needed to get this out first.
I want to take a moment to explain that for a while there things were not so good. With the help of some pretty amazing people that I consider very good friends, I got through it. I was hanging out for a long time with Cleveland, who I considered to be a very close friend. He had some tendencies to become very aggressive and angry. It was a problem for me because he directed it very specifically at me. He had a short fuse and it interfered with our friendship. I tried talking to him about several times and he would always apologize and I would always forgive. He would even tell me how good those conversations were for him because it made him realize he wanted to be a better person. Unfortunately, just before Christmas, he snapped at me for no reason and I had it. I wanted to get to the bottom things and really lay the cards out on the table. Sadly, he didn't. When I made a comment to him about how he was always so considerate and helpful, yet he had trouble showing love and no trouble showing hate, he snapped again. Somehow this comment led him to feel it was necessary to become physically violent and assaulted me. At first I was very sorry for saying something that made him angry. Then I realized after a few days that I was blaming myself for his own insecurities and decided to end the friendship. It was really easy to come to that decision but I did not realize how bad of an aspect he was in my life until he was gone. I had to. He was a different person when other people were around and it hurt. I cut him out of my life completely and I feel so much better for it now. In retrospect, I should not have put up with so much shit for so long, but that's just me. Dumb and trusting. So his angry violence ended up hurting my neck pretty severely. I had problems with my neck and shoulder for months. I have just now fully recovered and have no more pain when I turn my head. First time in months I was able to do this was last week. He is twice my size and just an over all bully. I don't even think he cares that he is in the wrong about this. He always justifies his horrible actions if he knows there is no chance to make them better. The last time I talked to him back in December, he actually said that I had pushed him too far. No matter how much someone is annoying you about an issue they have with you, it is never ok to lay a hand on them. Especially someone you care about. Anyway, I wanted to explain that because some of you have known us to be friends and I didn't want there to be any confusion as to why that isn't true anymore. But like I said my life has vastly improved and there are so many amazing things happening for me these days... I will post about that next. Just needed to get this out first.