Talked with Josh
I ended up talking with Josh this morning before school started. I do have to say that I was definitely expecting to end up crying or screaming this morning. To tell the truth, there were tears. But they weren't mine. Josh cried on my shoulder, repeating "I'm sorry" over and over again. He said that he is glad I'm happy in my new relationship, he loves Zach but still resents him, and he's sorry that he told me all of the hurtful things he did. He claimed that the only reason he said that he was going to leave forever was because he was in pain and thought that it was what he wanted. He still avoids me and tries to guilt trip me a little bit, but he's becoming a lot easier to handle. It's making my life significantly easier, even though it sucks to say it. I don't like hurting Josh; it was never my intention to do so. I hate the fact that he's in so much pain, but I love the fact that I'm so damn happy in my new life. Everybody's happy ... everyone but Josh. Hell, even Justin likes Zach, except for the fact that he's played football for Cuba. *grin* God, I love Zach so much!