I don't want your drama...
I don't know where to begin.
So many things on my mind that I could say, but I'm not quite sure that I want to express all of what I'm feeling anyways.
And who knows if I will even be able to find the worst to describe this.
Well first, I am going to start off with saying this.
I don't know if you noticed but I took you off my friend's list.
I don't care enough to read how you are doing, what you did, how you feel, or how many changes you are making in your life anymore.
Truthfully, I stopped caring after what happened and the way you treated us at the Lake.
It was bogus, it was cruel, it was self-centered, and it was a waste of 4 days that I could have spent doing absolutely nothing and still have had more fun than listening to all the fucking drama that got caused from the trip. What a getaway, huh?
I'm very very thankful that we took the trip with you though because it showed us how you really are.
And that was the turning point in not only our friendship, but your friendship with them also. And I got it two times worse than you ever cared to think cause not only did I have a small part in it, but when there was drama with my girlfriend I am going through it just as much as she is.
I feel what she feels. She feels what I feel. Truthfully, someone could hurt her and not even know that I exist and I would feel twice the pain as she feels cause I feel for her. And thats how you know you are soulmates.
So of course no matter what happens I am going to back my girl.
But anyways, my point is that ever since then, things have been awkward around your house and even the four of us hanging out together other than your house. You should have known that is was only a matter of time before we cracked. We cracked, you snapped! Me personally - I think you have gone bizzurk. But hey, thats just me and my opinon has never mattered to you in the first place.
So yes, you have probably thought to yourself and said "Rob hasn't said anything to me or tried talking to me about anything." Like I said, of course I am going to back Meg and Amy too, but I feel that your drama is very easily avoidable. People don't have to keep nagging things on if they have already ended. Your drama is not of my concern. Sorry, but thats how I feel. And plus, I'm not saying this to make you feel bad or anything cause I'm over it, but I don't know if it was cause I am the guy and you would get frustrated that it couldn't be just you girls all the time, but you seriously treated me like your bitch. You would say things that really hurt me and you wouldn't even realize. Of course I wouldn't show it, but sometimes you really hurt me. No matter if it was you asking or making me do something for you, or making a smart comment about something that I might be insecure about or it could have been anything. The bottom line, why would I stick around and be treated like a slave-bitch if I really don't have to.
No, I don't hate you. No, I don't care to hear sorry.
If you could just realize where you went wrong, that would be an apology all in itself.
And I know you think it's not only you, thats completely understandable cause as hard headed as you are, nobody expects you to think it is all your fault.
Okay, I know I didn't finish that but oh well. I think I have gotten my point across considering the fact that I have remained silent this whole time, but I don't see the point of going on and on about virtually nothing.
Okay, Bye to you.
(Today was Wed. right?)
On the other hand.
I got called into work today to work from 4 - close(10).
And I have the same shift tomorrow.
And when I got in there he told me that I am going to work that shift every Wed. and Thurs.
SWEET! I told him I really appreciate the fact that he is giving me more hours cause I really need them.
And on top of that he said that from now on instead of working 3 - close(9) on Sundays I can start working 9AM - 9PM to make it like working another day. I said I will take it. I know that it will be exhausting and very tiring but I need the money and plus it will teach me to have total repect for the workplace and make me have a sense of accomplishment working such a hard shift.
I only worked 6 hours today and my legs and feet are killing me, so imagine who dead I am going to feel after Sundays. But whatever, Meg is going to give me some sleeping pills on Saturday night and tuck me in so I can be well rested for Sunday. (I need some sort of sleep aid cause my insomnia has gotten so bad since I moved in here.)
So I guess I can say I am very very content with my life right now. I have moved on from a crumbled friendship. I am thankful to feel like an active teenager again and have a job. I am also thankful that it is so damn close. Shitty pay, but the people there are cool as hell and I have an awesome boss. My girlfriend picks me up from work so I don't have to walk the 10 minutes it takes to get home. lol. But I am just so thankful that I get to see her every day and before I go to bad at night.
And recently AFI, Cartel, As Cities Burn, August Burns Red, From First To Last, Job For A Cowboy, and Underoath cds keep me happy too.
I thank God for all that I have.
I thank God for you.
So many things on my mind that I could say, but I'm not quite sure that I want to express all of what I'm feeling anyways.
And who knows if I will even be able to find the worst to describe this.
Well first, I am going to start off with saying this.
I don't know if you noticed but I took you off my friend's list.
I don't care enough to read how you are doing, what you did, how you feel, or how many changes you are making in your life anymore.
Truthfully, I stopped caring after what happened and the way you treated us at the Lake.
It was bogus, it was cruel, it was self-centered, and it was a waste of 4 days that I could have spent doing absolutely nothing and still have had more fun than listening to all the fucking drama that got caused from the trip. What a getaway, huh?
I'm very very thankful that we took the trip with you though because it showed us how you really are.
And that was the turning point in not only our friendship, but your friendship with them also. And I got it two times worse than you ever cared to think cause not only did I have a small part in it, but when there was drama with my girlfriend I am going through it just as much as she is.
I feel what she feels. She feels what I feel. Truthfully, someone could hurt her and not even know that I exist and I would feel twice the pain as she feels cause I feel for her. And thats how you know you are soulmates.
So of course no matter what happens I am going to back my girl.
But anyways, my point is that ever since then, things have been awkward around your house and even the four of us hanging out together other than your house. You should have known that is was only a matter of time before we cracked. We cracked, you snapped! Me personally - I think you have gone bizzurk. But hey, thats just me and my opinon has never mattered to you in the first place.
So yes, you have probably thought to yourself and said "Rob hasn't said anything to me or tried talking to me about anything." Like I said, of course I am going to back Meg and Amy too, but I feel that your drama is very easily avoidable. People don't have to keep nagging things on if they have already ended. Your drama is not of my concern. Sorry, but thats how I feel. And plus, I'm not saying this to make you feel bad or anything cause I'm over it, but I don't know if it was cause I am the guy and you would get frustrated that it couldn't be just you girls all the time, but you seriously treated me like your bitch. You would say things that really hurt me and you wouldn't even realize. Of course I wouldn't show it, but sometimes you really hurt me. No matter if it was you asking or making me do something for you, or making a smart comment about something that I might be insecure about or it could have been anything. The bottom line, why would I stick around and be treated like a slave-bitch if I really don't have to.
No, I don't hate you. No, I don't care to hear sorry.
If you could just realize where you went wrong, that would be an apology all in itself.
And I know you think it's not only you, thats completely understandable cause as hard headed as you are, nobody expects you to think it is all your fault.
Okay, I know I didn't finish that but oh well. I think I have gotten my point across considering the fact that I have remained silent this whole time, but I don't see the point of going on and on about virtually nothing.
Okay, Bye to you.
(Today was Wed. right?)
On the other hand.
I got called into work today to work from 4 - close(10).
And I have the same shift tomorrow.
And when I got in there he told me that I am going to work that shift every Wed. and Thurs.
SWEET! I told him I really appreciate the fact that he is giving me more hours cause I really need them.
And on top of that he said that from now on instead of working 3 - close(9) on Sundays I can start working 9AM - 9PM to make it like working another day. I said I will take it. I know that it will be exhausting and very tiring but I need the money and plus it will teach me to have total repect for the workplace and make me have a sense of accomplishment working such a hard shift.
I only worked 6 hours today and my legs and feet are killing me, so imagine who dead I am going to feel after Sundays. But whatever, Meg is going to give me some sleeping pills on Saturday night and tuck me in so I can be well rested for Sunday. (I need some sort of sleep aid cause my insomnia has gotten so bad since I moved in here.)
So I guess I can say I am very very content with my life right now. I have moved on from a crumbled friendship. I am thankful to feel like an active teenager again and have a job. I am also thankful that it is so damn close. Shitty pay, but the people there are cool as hell and I have an awesome boss. My girlfriend picks me up from work so I don't have to walk the 10 minutes it takes to get home. lol. But I am just so thankful that I get to see her every day and before I go to bad at night.
And recently AFI, Cartel, As Cities Burn, August Burns Red, From First To Last, Job For A Cowboy, and Underoath cds keep me happy too.
I thank God for all that I have.
I thank God for you.