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im just taking a small break from reading to type about some stuff
its really hard to get into things here when i know ill just be leaving
so all my new years resolution stuff is just going to have to wait until i get back to richmond
becuase i just dont have the energy or drive to do anything right now
i feel so horrible that i sleep in every day
i just want to be productive
i want to be healthy and energetic
and i want to spend time with my family
and i just want to have time
time time time
work consumes my life and i feel like i havent really gotten the chance to hang out with anyone
especially my family
i love my family
i always get so sad when i think about this subject
its so hard to not stress out when im thinking about paying for all this stuff
my parents offer to pay for everything and i dont know why i think i cant accept
i dont know why i try to do everything at once
actually, im glad i started typing this because i should really talk to my parents about how i feel on the subject
i want to go to greece and i want to pay for my apartment next year, but i was planning on working 2 jobs this summer just to pay rent
and now that i throw greece in, its just more money i have to make
and all of this really sucks because ive realized recently how much i think about money
not because i want to be rich, but because i want to experience so much
and i feel like ill never get ahead
and i want to travel so much
and this is such a great opportunity
and as much as i want to go, i think ill have to wait
i dont know
i have 5 months to think about it
but i just want to go so bad
also this apartment situation is stressing me out
ive been looking for the past week and i cant find any 4 bedroom apartments
i thought id have mroe time this semester, but im taking another class so now im up to 19 credits
which is a lot id say
im reading the second summer of the sisterhood
its amazing
i wish i had a boyfriend
that is so lame
but so true
im getting old
what if i dont ever find a husband
and i cant ever have kids
and my whole life is devoted to my job
and all i eat are tv dinners?
also, i wish i could be a doctor and a lawyer and a graphic designer.
im almost starting to have second thoughts about my career
i mean, i love what i do
but i want to do other things too
and i want to travel
EVERYWHERE
and i mean, its not like im just throwing that statement out there
if i die before ive traveled everywhere, im going to be really disappointed.
the only reason im typing this in here is because its entirely too much to handwrite in my journal
and i could make it private, but why do that?
you guys are my friends and im sure you all kind of understand where im coming from
i want to go back to reading
sarah
its really hard to get into things here when i know ill just be leaving
so all my new years resolution stuff is just going to have to wait until i get back to richmond
becuase i just dont have the energy or drive to do anything right now
i feel so horrible that i sleep in every day
i just want to be productive
i want to be healthy and energetic
and i want to spend time with my family
and i just want to have time
time time time
work consumes my life and i feel like i havent really gotten the chance to hang out with anyone
especially my family
i love my family
i always get so sad when i think about this subject
its so hard to not stress out when im thinking about paying for all this stuff
my parents offer to pay for everything and i dont know why i think i cant accept
i dont know why i try to do everything at once
actually, im glad i started typing this because i should really talk to my parents about how i feel on the subject
i want to go to greece and i want to pay for my apartment next year, but i was planning on working 2 jobs this summer just to pay rent
and now that i throw greece in, its just more money i have to make
and all of this really sucks because ive realized recently how much i think about money
not because i want to be rich, but because i want to experience so much
and i feel like ill never get ahead
and i want to travel so much
and this is such a great opportunity
and as much as i want to go, i think ill have to wait
i dont know
i have 5 months to think about it
but i just want to go so bad
also this apartment situation is stressing me out
ive been looking for the past week and i cant find any 4 bedroom apartments
i thought id have mroe time this semester, but im taking another class so now im up to 19 credits
which is a lot id say
im reading the second summer of the sisterhood
its amazing
i wish i had a boyfriend
that is so lame
but so true
im getting old
what if i dont ever find a husband
and i cant ever have kids
and my whole life is devoted to my job
and all i eat are tv dinners?
also, i wish i could be a doctor and a lawyer and a graphic designer.
im almost starting to have second thoughts about my career
i mean, i love what i do
but i want to do other things too
and i want to travel
EVERYWHERE
and i mean, its not like im just throwing that statement out there
if i die before ive traveled everywhere, im going to be really disappointed.
the only reason im typing this in here is because its entirely too much to handwrite in my journal
and i could make it private, but why do that?
you guys are my friends and im sure you all kind of understand where im coming from
i want to go back to reading
sarah