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idk what to say wat was supose to be a great day turned out to be the most horable hours ever to face. i regret it i do even tho i didn't say it before i do. i'm just so mad it turned out that way bit i know i deserve it. i can't even begin to describe what i feel right now. i wish you u were here and i'm glad ur not, i wish it would all go away but it won't. i can't believe i'm going through this how am i suppose to look upon those eyes and not feel guilt how am i suppose to smile if i'm as sad as have ever. he might say he doesn't think that about me but i know in the deep end EVERYONE does. i'm starting to believe that maybe i am. ur the only and i mean it, the only one who gives me the strength to go through this and the only reason i can is because ur at risk and i'll loose everything before i loose you. so yes i feel just as little as a needle hole but ur love come sin and all the sudden i'm me again only better.
i'm sorry i'm makin gu go through this u don't deserve it, i'm the one that started everyhting that's ever bad. so i begg you i'm sorry i feel so low and bad and aaarrrr i cna't say it i don't know how but please i need to hear you, y? because i miss you. i always miss you even when ur right next to me.i can't type no more i'm going to sleep now but know i'm waitting for ur call. so please make the best effort to talk to me as soon as possible. i love you.
i'm sorry i'm makin gu go through this u don't deserve it, i'm the one that started everyhting that's ever bad. so i begg you i'm sorry i feel so low and bad and aaarrrr i cna't say it i don't know how but please i need to hear you, y? because i miss you. i always miss you even when ur right next to me.i can't type no more i'm going to sleep now but know i'm waitting for ur call. so please make the best effort to talk to me as soon as possible. i love you.