Past. pt2
nang mabasa ko ulit ang entry na 'to, medyo napasenti lang ulit ako. Kakatapos lang nun ng paper namin ni Jenna (pink_issues), at nag-usap kami ng dibdiban over donuts and milk, sa cello's. taga-burgundy pa pala ako nun. tas eto yung mga nasabi, naisip, naalala at napagtanto ko sa pag-uusap naming iyon:
sawa na akong maghintay. sawa na rin akong manlimos. <-- oo, tungkol sa lablayp yan. ang bitter ko pala talaga nun.
kung wala, edi wala. kung meron, asan na? kung hindi ngayon, kelan? <-- hehe, andito na sya ngayon.. hehe :)
maybe i'm trying too much to meet what others expect from me.
maybe i'm trying to be someone i am not.
bakit ba ako nakikipagsabayan? we don't belong in the same circle.
i want my old life back.
i know i wanted this. i thought it would make me happy. turns out, i wanted the wrong things.
sometimes we mistake happiness for love.
"Paano pala kung hindi naman kita talagang mahal? ... paano kung masaya lang pala tayo magkasama?" <-- naku, naaalala mo pa ba 'to? hehe..
"Kung may gusto kang sabihin, sabihin mo lang. Huwag kang manghinayang. magagawa pa rin naman natin ang mga ito kahit hindi tayo." <-- eto pa :)
mag-iisang taon na. hindi ko alam kung nanghihinayang ba ako o hindi. hindi ako sigurado. pero masaya na rin naman ako - para sa kanya at para sa akin na rin.
"Napakaself-centered mo. i never knew anyone as selfish as you are!" <-- ouch!
"Is that how you take it? i just, i just..."
four years ago. gahd.
maybe i'm just not good at letting go. <-- check!
maybe i'm not good at anything at all. <-- er, andrama ko. hehe.
"i was never thrilled by anyone 'til you." <-- Yikes, i can't believe may sinabihan ako nito. hehe.. alam mo na kung sino ka..
"It's your choice. whatever it is, it will have a lifetime implication on you." <-- sabi to sa akin ni Joyce (your_bitchness), hmmmm..
"Ayokong mainvolve sa isang relationship nang dahil lang sa kilig."<-- sa blog ata ni kaarbeen o ni campitas_tikoy ko ito nakuha.
i want to love for the right reason.
love needs no reason. love is the reason itself. <-- Check!!
sometimes love is just not enough.
one way ticket to the world.
you don't always get what you want.
you give up things to get better ones.
if you want to get different results, do different things.
You're just not prepared. i understand. <-- haha. may kaugnayan pa din dun sa unrequited love ekek na nabanggit sa naunang post. :)
maybe i just need someone outside our circle. our block, the org and our studies just coincide so much. wala kang ibang masasabihan. <-- at ngayon, she's a blockmate, an orgmate, a friend and more! hehe.
He serves that purpose for me. <-- he served it.
sawa na akong maghintay. sawa na rin akong manlimos. <-- oo, tungkol sa lablayp yan. ang bitter ko pala talaga nun.
kung wala, edi wala. kung meron, asan na? kung hindi ngayon, kelan? <-- hehe, andito na sya ngayon.. hehe :)
maybe i'm trying too much to meet what others expect from me.
maybe i'm trying to be someone i am not.
bakit ba ako nakikipagsabayan? we don't belong in the same circle.
i want my old life back.
i know i wanted this. i thought it would make me happy. turns out, i wanted the wrong things.
sometimes we mistake happiness for love.
"Paano pala kung hindi naman kita talagang mahal? ... paano kung masaya lang pala tayo magkasama?" <-- naku, naaalala mo pa ba 'to? hehe..
"Kung may gusto kang sabihin, sabihin mo lang. Huwag kang manghinayang. magagawa pa rin naman natin ang mga ito kahit hindi tayo." <-- eto pa :)
mag-iisang taon na. hindi ko alam kung nanghihinayang ba ako o hindi. hindi ako sigurado. pero masaya na rin naman ako - para sa kanya at para sa akin na rin.
"Napakaself-centered mo. i never knew anyone as selfish as you are!" <-- ouch!
"Is that how you take it? i just, i just..."
four years ago. gahd.
maybe i'm just not good at letting go. <-- check!
maybe i'm not good at anything at all. <-- er, andrama ko. hehe.
"i was never thrilled by anyone 'til you." <-- Yikes, i can't believe may sinabihan ako nito. hehe.. alam mo na kung sino ka..
"It's your choice. whatever it is, it will have a lifetime implication on you." <-- sabi to sa akin ni Joyce (your_bitchness), hmmmm..
"Ayokong mainvolve sa isang relationship nang dahil lang sa kilig."<-- sa blog ata ni kaarbeen o ni campitas_tikoy ko ito nakuha.
i want to love for the right reason.
love needs no reason. love is the reason itself. <-- Check!!
sometimes love is just not enough.
one way ticket to the world.
you don't always get what you want.
you give up things to get better ones.
if you want to get different results, do different things.
You're just not prepared. i understand. <-- haha. may kaugnayan pa din dun sa unrequited love ekek na nabanggit sa naunang post. :)
maybe i just need someone outside our circle. our block, the org and our studies just coincide so much. wala kang ibang masasabihan. <-- at ngayon, she's a blockmate, an orgmate, a friend and more! hehe.
He serves that purpose for me. <-- he served it.