The wilderness of one's own mind.
So I've been having trouble sleeping yet again. Its a combination of boredom and loneliness. It gets worse around the holidays I've found. Sort of a side effect of being away from everything I know. Sadly there is no easy solution to that. I have to save money so traveling is really out of the question with how prices are these days. That's not really a big deal. I can keep in touch with people.
Really the big deal for me is I'm tired of being alone. I know some people are content with it, but I've been single and alone for the better part of 12 years now and I'm tired of it. I don't want to just go out and try and hook up with someone because the last thing I want to deal with is another psycho screaming 'Your not my father' at me and then very nearly stranding me in Canada. (Why can't meeting people be simple??)
So I don't really have a solution. But I need to do something. This stupid melancholy that has fallen over me is keeping me from getting anything I want to work on done and I'm tired of it. I just wish I had a solution to the problem.
Really the big deal for me is I'm tired of being alone. I know some people are content with it, but I've been single and alone for the better part of 12 years now and I'm tired of it. I don't want to just go out and try and hook up with someone because the last thing I want to deal with is another psycho screaming 'Your not my father' at me and then very nearly stranding me in Canada. (Why can't meeting people be simple??)
So I don't really have a solution. But I need to do something. This stupid melancholy that has fallen over me is keeping me from getting anything I want to work on done and I'm tired of it. I just wish I had a solution to the problem.