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Jan 13, 2006 23:29

dont you just have one of those days? where just..it hits you. your life is just going downward. just for that on day, you feel like total hell. you want to die. you skip classes to brood in your own pathetic emotions. you need time for thinking, and self-pity.

but people just wont leave you the fuck alone?

i swear..for just this ONE fucking day..cant someone just sit back and be like 'Hey Anthony, are you alright? what's wrong? i really want to help you..you mean a lot to me.'

no, of course they cant. cause they're too busy bitching about their problems to give half a shit about anyone else. like i DONT sit around and listen to your fucking problems all night when he fucking dumped you, or you lost a good friend, or a family member died. I WAS FUCKING THERE. but no. i have a bad day and i still have to listen to your bullshit.

well today, it just hit me. i lost my best friend who has been like a brother to me for 11 fucking years. my girlfriend got pissed off at me, and we're as far apart as ever. i havent slept for more than 2 hours a night in about a week, i'm behind in all my classes, and i cant even fucking write in school cause my muscles are so tight whenever i grip a fucking pen my hand shakes like i have parkinsons disease.

but in the heat of my frustration, i still apologize to anyone who i may have offended. i'm just having a bad day, i didnt mean to..cuss so much. sorry.
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