what time is it? update time!
well the title should probably be, im a fuck up.
yes i fucked up hardcore, im trying hard to make up for my mistake.
i've apologized to the people I HAD TO APOLOGIZE TO and WANTED TO APOLOGIZE TO.
theres nothing i hate more than hurting the people i try so hard to be close to, and when i do, i try my best to make things right. and when im doing this, im quite sad, because i feel ive let people down,
But when other people decide that they are an important factor, yet dont know everything i've tried to do, and decide that scolding me and not talking to me and try to make me feel worse about what i did, i get pretty annoyed. thank you so much for letting even more people know that i fucked up in my personal life that they're not involved in. now id like to apologize to you, cause you're probably angry at me now, id like to say im sorry for ever hurting you personally, i would never want to cause you any pain, id rather make you smile every single damn day i see you because you are such a great friend. and i realize i hurt one of your dearest friends, i would give the world to make things right again, but no you dont know that, cause im too much of a FUCK UP to even want to listen to.
at least you can know, i was miserable for another day because of my mistakes.
i havent updated since what? before halloween?
the saturday before was spent watchign the shining with some friends (this is the night my fucking up started)
then i went to sleep over at besas house, that was fun, pulled out my ninja moves while i cuoldnt even see straight. got offered a dollar to run full force into a weighted down punching bag. i got a dollar. that was the night the amiss played at some church. um. then sunday was halloween and yeah, that wasnt so interesting. mostly just eating random bits of candy and more walking around the wonderful town of vienna.
the week (when my fuck up happened)
thursday (day my fuck up was confronted)
friday (continuing penance) race out in orange virginia, tied my PR 19 minutes 45 seconds. came in 8th (2 seconds from 7th) for oconnells varsity team.... ive never run varsity before. yay. bu the race casued me to miss michele's boat fiesta. so i was sad for that. but then i ended up sleeping over at besas again. and yeah, it was just another crazy night of poker, and drawing on genes face...
saturday, the amiss play AGAIN. and this time i was there, i thought the show was fun, smaller crowd, but hey. oconnell kids showed up, it was weird seeing them outside of school. matt wore the worst clothes ever. sorry dude. and uh mike completed his guitar swing, good times. bryans voice didnt even sound bad, so that was good, drama though is bad, and there was plenty of that to go around. la di da, go home, sleep
mass on sunday, then get a ride with kat to MV's house to spackle the back room, that was a good time, volpe and celia were there too, so we listened to backstreet boys while eating chinese delivery, and decided that some little devil child will eat MV's birds. um yeah, so then to my aunts house, then home, then more sleep.
today i got to school half dressed, was almost late for homeroom, left my cellphone in my carpools car, so it was ALMOST a bad morning, but then because of my fuck up, it was just a slow day all together. runnign in the cold wasnt to great either.
//fuck
yes i fucked up hardcore, im trying hard to make up for my mistake.
i've apologized to the people I HAD TO APOLOGIZE TO and WANTED TO APOLOGIZE TO.
theres nothing i hate more than hurting the people i try so hard to be close to, and when i do, i try my best to make things right. and when im doing this, im quite sad, because i feel ive let people down,
But when other people decide that they are an important factor, yet dont know everything i've tried to do, and decide that scolding me and not talking to me and try to make me feel worse about what i did, i get pretty annoyed. thank you so much for letting even more people know that i fucked up in my personal life that they're not involved in. now id like to apologize to you, cause you're probably angry at me now, id like to say im sorry for ever hurting you personally, i would never want to cause you any pain, id rather make you smile every single damn day i see you because you are such a great friend. and i realize i hurt one of your dearest friends, i would give the world to make things right again, but no you dont know that, cause im too much of a FUCK UP to even want to listen to.
at least you can know, i was miserable for another day because of my mistakes.
i havent updated since what? before halloween?
the saturday before was spent watchign the shining with some friends (this is the night my fucking up started)
then i went to sleep over at besas house, that was fun, pulled out my ninja moves while i cuoldnt even see straight. got offered a dollar to run full force into a weighted down punching bag. i got a dollar. that was the night the amiss played at some church. um. then sunday was halloween and yeah, that wasnt so interesting. mostly just eating random bits of candy and more walking around the wonderful town of vienna.
the week (when my fuck up happened)
thursday (day my fuck up was confronted)
friday (continuing penance) race out in orange virginia, tied my PR 19 minutes 45 seconds. came in 8th (2 seconds from 7th) for oconnells varsity team.... ive never run varsity before. yay. bu the race casued me to miss michele's boat fiesta. so i was sad for that. but then i ended up sleeping over at besas again. and yeah, it was just another crazy night of poker, and drawing on genes face...
saturday, the amiss play AGAIN. and this time i was there, i thought the show was fun, smaller crowd, but hey. oconnell kids showed up, it was weird seeing them outside of school. matt wore the worst clothes ever. sorry dude. and uh mike completed his guitar swing, good times. bryans voice didnt even sound bad, so that was good, drama though is bad, and there was plenty of that to go around. la di da, go home, sleep
mass on sunday, then get a ride with kat to MV's house to spackle the back room, that was a good time, volpe and celia were there too, so we listened to backstreet boys while eating chinese delivery, and decided that some little devil child will eat MV's birds. um yeah, so then to my aunts house, then home, then more sleep.
today i got to school half dressed, was almost late for homeroom, left my cellphone in my carpools car, so it was ALMOST a bad morning, but then because of my fuck up, it was just a slow day all together. runnign in the cold wasnt to great either.
//fuck