Gusty
You know how they tell you that in life there are ups and downs, like a roller coaster? Well it's come to my attention that it's more like a roller coaster than I expected. The longer and higher you're going up in life, the faster and lower you seem to crash back down. Negative, Negatives, Negativos. This is something I'm not too proud of.
I've noticed changes in everyone around me from when we first met, especially those off campus. Perhaps it's that level of physical separation that does it mentally, or maybe it's just the comfort zone that becomes easier to develop outside of the steadily down grading campus society. Trust me when I say Garcia has become a drug infested pit of depression (YES. More than before.)
Hmmm. Mood. Never know what to put in that section. Ok, Listen to this and read, or whatever.
http://listen.grooveshark.com/s/Conquistador+I/4Zo7d?src=5
(Yes, the lyrics do have a meaning.)
Anyways, I've noticed that (usually negative) personal changes to be constrained to 3 types of reaction.
Acceptance: The friend has noticed the change in their behaviors, reactions, and expectations. They are aware of the difference from the past to the present, and are willing to stay the way they have evolved to, for better or for worse. I think this is a wise way to adapt.
Denial: This is rather common, so I have noted. The friend disagrees that they have changed in a significant way within their normal interaction with people. When brought up, the question is deflected, denied, and sometimes returned with a bit of hidden dislike. This form of change does not imply ignorance as much as it does stress, or worry.
Apathy: This one, well, I have seen this one as well, more recently especially. The friend is aware of their changes in personal behavior between intense situations. They know and admit that they no longer stand for or defend what used to be important to them. From my inquiries of how this effected them, I have learned that the friend will indeed consciously decide not to question or challenge their usually negative adaptation on life. Whether it be through fear, inability to cope, emotional shock or trauma, or all of the above, this seems to be the most difficult form of change to deal with.
These of course are my observational opinions. To be honest, I was apathetic about the changes I went through when my father passed away. It's taken recent experiences to jar me back to my quizzical self. Judging one's self can be a great catalyst to improving the quality of life, as I have learned in the past.
The recent events have been very intrusive on the crack in hell I settled myself into. Friends in hospitals, family in pain, bonds being broken. And always, the lurking bill to be paid. Money aside of course, all of these things are really engraved into my heart, and such a shift has caused my existence to shutter. A friend of mine told me that the ancients believed the coming of spring from winter would bring evil along with the strong winds. This evil would cause friends and family to break their bonds and fight amongst themselves. Unfortunately she didn't say when those winds would leave! Evil has found me again. It may have taken the loss of some of my most emotionally supportive friends, or the separation of strong bonds between individuals. Perhaps it was the destruction of a friendship formed upon the tears we've shared upon each other's shoulders when in distress, or perhaps it is the images of so many important people in my life laid up in a hospital bed, or beneath the earth. I can tell you one thing, it is not the balance of my bank account that has done this upon me.
These recent winds have brought havoc into my life. It's time for me to accept what has blown onto my doorstep, and restore what was lost so long ago.
...so, wish me luck!
Dragoshi
I've noticed changes in everyone around me from when we first met, especially those off campus. Perhaps it's that level of physical separation that does it mentally, or maybe it's just the comfort zone that becomes easier to develop outside of the steadily down grading campus society. Trust me when I say Garcia has become a drug infested pit of depression (YES. More than before.)
Hmmm. Mood. Never know what to put in that section. Ok, Listen to this and read, or whatever.
http://listen.grooveshark.com/s/Conquistador+I/4Zo7d?src=5
(Yes, the lyrics do have a meaning.)
Anyways, I've noticed that (usually negative) personal changes to be constrained to 3 types of reaction.
Acceptance: The friend has noticed the change in their behaviors, reactions, and expectations. They are aware of the difference from the past to the present, and are willing to stay the way they have evolved to, for better or for worse. I think this is a wise way to adapt.
Denial: This is rather common, so I have noted. The friend disagrees that they have changed in a significant way within their normal interaction with people. When brought up, the question is deflected, denied, and sometimes returned with a bit of hidden dislike. This form of change does not imply ignorance as much as it does stress, or worry.
Apathy: This one, well, I have seen this one as well, more recently especially. The friend is aware of their changes in personal behavior between intense situations. They know and admit that they no longer stand for or defend what used to be important to them. From my inquiries of how this effected them, I have learned that the friend will indeed consciously decide not to question or challenge their usually negative adaptation on life. Whether it be through fear, inability to cope, emotional shock or trauma, or all of the above, this seems to be the most difficult form of change to deal with.
These of course are my observational opinions. To be honest, I was apathetic about the changes I went through when my father passed away. It's taken recent experiences to jar me back to my quizzical self. Judging one's self can be a great catalyst to improving the quality of life, as I have learned in the past.
The recent events have been very intrusive on the crack in hell I settled myself into. Friends in hospitals, family in pain, bonds being broken. And always, the lurking bill to be paid. Money aside of course, all of these things are really engraved into my heart, and such a shift has caused my existence to shutter. A friend of mine told me that the ancients believed the coming of spring from winter would bring evil along with the strong winds. This evil would cause friends and family to break their bonds and fight amongst themselves. Unfortunately she didn't say when those winds would leave! Evil has found me again. It may have taken the loss of some of my most emotionally supportive friends, or the separation of strong bonds between individuals. Perhaps it was the destruction of a friendship formed upon the tears we've shared upon each other's shoulders when in distress, or perhaps it is the images of so many important people in my life laid up in a hospital bed, or beneath the earth. I can tell you one thing, it is not the balance of my bank account that has done this upon me.
These recent winds have brought havoc into my life. It's time for me to accept what has blown onto my doorstep, and restore what was lost so long ago.
...so, wish me luck!
Dragoshi