sigh back to the drawing board.

[dragool]

well mental health wise everything has been fine for at least 10 months to a year with no real episodes of sketching out. however had a bit of a rellapse last night due to unforseen circumstances of an ex friend variety

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We're In This Together

[frozenapalm]

I feel that, having read this LiveJournal entry, I have to stand up for what I think and add my thoughts. I am quite surprised by your harsh response to Anna on Friday night and I feel that it was unfair and unjustified. Yes we all have our problems, in many forms. Anna has hers currently and I'm sure you do as well.

We are used to seeing a happy, chirpy Sparky around. It just seems that, a lot of the time, you seem to deal with them in unconventional ways, ways that seem attention seeking to quite a few people. Sometimes it seems that you go out of your way to make an existing problem into something more than it actually is. And people react to your episodes in different ways. Some people, many who admittedly know you better than I, chose to try and comfort you and help you. I myself kept out of your way in these situations because I don't know enough about your situation to be able to distinguish what is real and what is exaggeration/fabrication.

What I saw on Friday night was Anna’s frustration at one of your possibly attention seeking episodes. And when you tried to explain your mood with what appeared to be more excuses, she said what many of us feel, “I don’t wanna hear it”. We stand by people we know and love, through their good moments and through their bad. But honesty is needed and respected. But with you Sparky, we just don’t know how much of what you say and do is an act. And rather than confront you with it, many people just chose to stand back and ignore it. For some of us, this may be called two-faced, but we feel it is easier and less confrontational if we stand back and say nothing. We do like the Sparky, you’re fun and interesting and we enjoy your company and input. And if there is a genuine problem that we can see then you have our support. Just don’t disrespect us by expecting us to believe that everything you say is true.

In your LJ entry, I can’t help but thinking that you are venting your frustrations at Anna unfairly. It seems that you’re jumping on the bandwagon by going out of your way to bitch about Anna. Yes, in my opinion she has made mistakes, but that isn’t really the issue here. Let’s not make this into another “war” where someone loses. Let’s not take sides. Let’s all ADMIT that we all have faults, and that we love each other despite these faults.

Therefore, on Friday, I hope to go, with my good friend Anna, who has made some mistakes, and my good friend Cazz, to Pandora’s Box, where I hope to see you Sparky and listen to your good music and what you honestly have to say. I hope we ALL have a great night, because we are all friends, and in the words of a great man, we’re in this together.

Re: We're In This Together

[dragool]

matt as always you make good points but this post had nothing to do with bandwagon in fact i didnt know about that until simones lj as friday i was too occupied to be caught up in peoples bitching (something good came out of that)

now with me granted i have been known to overreact and granted i have a few mental conditions (which like i have said ive worked fucking hard to control) and have been happy and stable for about 6 months quite contented. one problem arose in the keller that quite a few people knew about that you and anna would not know about as you didnt even know me then, and i havent felt the need to bitch about the incident or that person as i had got over the whole thing until they turned up and made the whole thing worse again.

my point about anna friday was exactly how i put it. i have never asked or expected anything from anna and have been there the whole break up with her and simone breaking my back to keep friends with both of them as ive known simone a lot longer people were expecting me to choose but i stayed neutral.

i asked for a small bit of understanding for the only time in knowing anna and she through it in my face on friday making me out to be an asshole, one event and im suddenly scum. now sorry but i really do like anna as a friend but that was uncalled for. especially when i had the bollocks to say im sorry and try to explain something which takes anyone a lot of guts to admit they are wrong.

i agree we can probably all be friends but ive kinda lost my trust in anna and ill still apologise for this post as your right i was ventating and should have written it when somewhat calmer.
but at the end of the day i was always there for anna if she phoned id come out i even offered her to come out on a few occasions, and i can only remember her phoning me once to invite me out.
and as opposed to my moods if people havent noticed me being cheerfull and non depressed then i guess i was kidding myself last few months really i thought i had actually sorted myself out a lot guess i was wrong.
to be honest theres not a lot more i can do, and if its not good enough for people and you dont like the way i am then dont pretend to be my friend if my moods dont fit people's life styles then im sorry i cant help that.

thanks for taking the time to post this matt its definately made me consider things. and ill see you friday if you and anna and caz are there for the last pb at the full moon.