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It's our 11th month anniversary today. D got me a sweet card of somebody sitting on a bench at night looking up at the moon and the stars and it reads (while playing music) "wish you were here". It made me want to cry =^.^;=
It feels wierd being at 11 months now. almost a year. it doesnt feel like it's been that long.
Didnt get anything done today. Amazingly I slept in till 1 pm! (and I'm still tired..) this has been the MOST sleep I've gotten in a very long time. D and I caught one episode of Family Guy this afternoon. We forgot it was coming on today.
I've been rather restless today. Wanted to do stuff but couldnt make up my mind on what I felt like doing. thought about playing a different game for a while but couldnt find enough interest in anything else so I went back to Diablo 2. Kinda felt like drawing or writing today but I'm still stuck in a really bad burn out. I still get the faint need/want to draw but I think I've lost confidence in myself with my creativity.
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On that note, let's talk about work...
There Might be some relief in sight. I had been extremely overworked lately to the point of nearly quitting (I know I say I would quit quite often but never seem to do..) then I find out that they've actually hired another bed maker AND an assistant for me!
At first I felt really great about it.. but now I'm not so sure. It was nice to have someone to help me out with everything and get me enough time to actually DO a great number of other side projects that I've been needing to do including organizing the maintenance room!
It's also nice to talk with someone who is more mature than all these useless teenagers who spend more time goofing off and having fun rather than getting any work done. Plus he is the first person since when I first was working here to actually sit down at the same table with me and talk. Not only that, but he is the only one who HASNT made fun of my picky eating! *shocked!* everyone else has quite literally been laughing behind my back and making comments that makes me feel very embarrassed and I've had to turn around and tell them that "Do you mind? I'm sitting right behind you, and I can hear you!"
when my mom found out that they hired someone new she flew off the handle saying that he's gonna replace me and has this whole conspiracy thing going on that the management is trying to weed me out and get rid of me, etc. etc.. I had to tell her that it was MY idea to hire him because they were overworking me (still for minimum wage..) then I got yelled at because now it's cutting down my hours and I wont be making any money and that I'll be losing my job when the slow season comes etc... though after I told her I might get sunday's off again so I can actually go to church for once this year. that seemed to have shut her up ^.^ lol.
Dan (the new guy) and I chatted about a lot of stuff, apparently he's very smart, got great grades, graduated just last year and has had SO MANY classes and got many college credits in high school. He knows a lot about how to fix things creatively, he has a lot of computer skills and he's really good at this job..
...Now I start to worry if this was such a good idea for me after all.. I've never been anyone's boss before and I'm so used to working on my own and at my own pace. Now Dan (later during his first day) has started talking to me as if he was MY boss and makes everything seem so simple. he's asked me about varrious things, none of them I knew anything about which made me feel like an imbicile.
he's clearly more superior at this job than I ever was. though it sorta is something I was wanting in the first place, to have someone here doing maintenance who actually knows what the hell they're doing. pretty soon no one will even bother to ask me for my help with anything anymore and I will no doubt be let go eventually.
however.. I do see one flaw in him that he needs to watch out for. he did make a comment to me about "if we clean up this place then we'll get a lot of hot girls coming around here talking to us instead of working and it wont be just 2 weird guys sitting around talking to each other!" I had to remind him that 80% of the staff here are under age and that quite a few people that have been fired from here has been because of sexual harrassment and if he screws up and doesnt watch what he says and does then he WILL be fired without a second thought.
..although he is pretty charismatic and judging from stories he's told me during lunch he may be able to pull off such things and get away with it.. *rolls eyes*
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on the topic of harrassment, I was threatened earlier this week. I was talking with my friend V at work. she asked me to get her a new dust bag for the vacum. I went and got one then went up stairs again. I saw into one of the rooms she was working in, she needed help with moving a table inside. I start to move it when one of the girls calls out to V and says she has a visitor. she whispers something that I couldnt make out and ran out of the room. I wasnt sure why but I got a very bad feeling from it.
something in my mind told me that I should be hiding somewhere in the room till her guest left. maybe it was the way she whispered something like a warning on her way out. I wondered if it was her boyfriend who in the past got quite pissed off because every time he shows up I happen to be around in the area. he's very distrustful of me because the last maintenance guy turned out to be such a pervert and was going around doing some sick stuff to the other women coworkers plus guests.
(the fact that I'm the company Eunic doesnt seem to be helping me any with the situation of V and her boyfriend..)
I instinctively hid around the corner, unsure if I should be hiding at all. I listened in on the voices but couldnt make them out. I thought maybe they had walked down around the corner of the hall. if it was V's boyfriend it wouldnt be helping me any if I was caught hiding in the room when there's nothing going on.
I heard them talking about "borrowing money" then figured it was probably just V's son (he comes quite often to borrow money for smokes..) I hesitated a minute and decided that it would be pointless for me to stay in there forever so I went ahead and marched out the door and hoped to get down the hall but unfortunately they were not around the corner but a few feet away from the door.
right away I hear her boyfriend shout:
"WHAT THE HELL IS THAT MOTHER FUCKER DOING HERE?!?!"
(aww shit....) He looked.. PISSED.
"EVERY TIME I COME HERE, THAT MOTHER FUCKER IS HANGING AROUND!!"
(apparently with his logic, the fact that I'm in the area, either helping fix something in a room or turning around the corner taking the trash out from the hall, in his mind means that I'm "fucking" her behind his back. the fact that we're coworkers and that we work together in the same building doesnt seem to matter in this equation.)
I turn around and tell him: "I work here."
"DONT GET SMART MOUTHED WITH ME BOY! I'LL BUST YOU UP!"
I just shruged and said whatever. I didnt want to do or say anything to make him any more pissed than he was. he clearly out wieghs me with twice the muscle mass that I do and could rip me in half like a phone book if he wanted.
I walked away down the hall and listened to them argue. I took a quick detour into the maids closet to listen to the rest of the fight. I heard V scream: "At least I'm not FUCKING HIM like you would be!"
her boyfriend has been caught so many times cheating on V and yet he gets pissed to the point of contemplating murder at the thought of her cheating on him. I told her to tell him that I'm gay that would hopefully put an end it all of this.
I'm quite afraid for my life around work now. a few times after that incident V has told me to watch my back because her boyfriend was in the building. he had threatened once before with the previous maintenance guy that he was going to drive by and shoot him dead if he ever saw him. no doubt he's fantasizing about doing the same thing with me.
this whole thing has really started to kill our friendship. there seems to be no connection when we try to chat and she cautions me not to be caught in the area in case her boyfriend is roaming around. So that pretty much killed what was left of my social life.. all because of a jealous control freak. feh. I know how the whole jealous thing goes and at least I have the sense not to taunt him further..
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hmm... well I was hoping to end on a happier note than this but it's getting late and I need to go to sleep to find out what crap comes at me tomorrow at work..
Oh yes! "Happy anniversary D!" there we go! :D *nod nod*. I feel better now ^.^
It feels wierd being at 11 months now. almost a year. it doesnt feel like it's been that long.
Didnt get anything done today. Amazingly I slept in till 1 pm! (and I'm still tired..) this has been the MOST sleep I've gotten in a very long time. D and I caught one episode of Family Guy this afternoon. We forgot it was coming on today.
I've been rather restless today. Wanted to do stuff but couldnt make up my mind on what I felt like doing. thought about playing a different game for a while but couldnt find enough interest in anything else so I went back to Diablo 2. Kinda felt like drawing or writing today but I'm still stuck in a really bad burn out. I still get the faint need/want to draw but I think I've lost confidence in myself with my creativity.
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On that note, let's talk about work...
There Might be some relief in sight. I had been extremely overworked lately to the point of nearly quitting (I know I say I would quit quite often but never seem to do..) then I find out that they've actually hired another bed maker AND an assistant for me!
At first I felt really great about it.. but now I'm not so sure. It was nice to have someone to help me out with everything and get me enough time to actually DO a great number of other side projects that I've been needing to do including organizing the maintenance room!
It's also nice to talk with someone who is more mature than all these useless teenagers who spend more time goofing off and having fun rather than getting any work done. Plus he is the first person since when I first was working here to actually sit down at the same table with me and talk. Not only that, but he is the only one who HASNT made fun of my picky eating! *shocked!* everyone else has quite literally been laughing behind my back and making comments that makes me feel very embarrassed and I've had to turn around and tell them that "Do you mind? I'm sitting right behind you, and I can hear you!"
when my mom found out that they hired someone new she flew off the handle saying that he's gonna replace me and has this whole conspiracy thing going on that the management is trying to weed me out and get rid of me, etc. etc.. I had to tell her that it was MY idea to hire him because they were overworking me (still for minimum wage..) then I got yelled at because now it's cutting down my hours and I wont be making any money and that I'll be losing my job when the slow season comes etc... though after I told her I might get sunday's off again so I can actually go to church for once this year. that seemed to have shut her up ^.^ lol.
Dan (the new guy) and I chatted about a lot of stuff, apparently he's very smart, got great grades, graduated just last year and has had SO MANY classes and got many college credits in high school. He knows a lot about how to fix things creatively, he has a lot of computer skills and he's really good at this job..
...Now I start to worry if this was such a good idea for me after all.. I've never been anyone's boss before and I'm so used to working on my own and at my own pace. Now Dan (later during his first day) has started talking to me as if he was MY boss and makes everything seem so simple. he's asked me about varrious things, none of them I knew anything about which made me feel like an imbicile.
he's clearly more superior at this job than I ever was. though it sorta is something I was wanting in the first place, to have someone here doing maintenance who actually knows what the hell they're doing. pretty soon no one will even bother to ask me for my help with anything anymore and I will no doubt be let go eventually.
however.. I do see one flaw in him that he needs to watch out for. he did make a comment to me about "if we clean up this place then we'll get a lot of hot girls coming around here talking to us instead of working and it wont be just 2 weird guys sitting around talking to each other!" I had to remind him that 80% of the staff here are under age and that quite a few people that have been fired from here has been because of sexual harrassment and if he screws up and doesnt watch what he says and does then he WILL be fired without a second thought.
..although he is pretty charismatic and judging from stories he's told me during lunch he may be able to pull off such things and get away with it.. *rolls eyes*
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on the topic of harrassment, I was threatened earlier this week. I was talking with my friend V at work. she asked me to get her a new dust bag for the vacum. I went and got one then went up stairs again. I saw into one of the rooms she was working in, she needed help with moving a table inside. I start to move it when one of the girls calls out to V and says she has a visitor. she whispers something that I couldnt make out and ran out of the room. I wasnt sure why but I got a very bad feeling from it.
something in my mind told me that I should be hiding somewhere in the room till her guest left. maybe it was the way she whispered something like a warning on her way out. I wondered if it was her boyfriend who in the past got quite pissed off because every time he shows up I happen to be around in the area. he's very distrustful of me because the last maintenance guy turned out to be such a pervert and was going around doing some sick stuff to the other women coworkers plus guests.
(the fact that I'm the company Eunic doesnt seem to be helping me any with the situation of V and her boyfriend..)
I instinctively hid around the corner, unsure if I should be hiding at all. I listened in on the voices but couldnt make them out. I thought maybe they had walked down around the corner of the hall. if it was V's boyfriend it wouldnt be helping me any if I was caught hiding in the room when there's nothing going on.
I heard them talking about "borrowing money" then figured it was probably just V's son (he comes quite often to borrow money for smokes..) I hesitated a minute and decided that it would be pointless for me to stay in there forever so I went ahead and marched out the door and hoped to get down the hall but unfortunately they were not around the corner but a few feet away from the door.
right away I hear her boyfriend shout:
"WHAT THE HELL IS THAT MOTHER FUCKER DOING HERE?!?!"
(aww shit....) He looked.. PISSED.
"EVERY TIME I COME HERE, THAT MOTHER FUCKER IS HANGING AROUND!!"
(apparently with his logic, the fact that I'm in the area, either helping fix something in a room or turning around the corner taking the trash out from the hall, in his mind means that I'm "fucking" her behind his back. the fact that we're coworkers and that we work together in the same building doesnt seem to matter in this equation.)
I turn around and tell him: "I work here."
"DONT GET SMART MOUTHED WITH ME BOY! I'LL BUST YOU UP!"
I just shruged and said whatever. I didnt want to do or say anything to make him any more pissed than he was. he clearly out wieghs me with twice the muscle mass that I do and could rip me in half like a phone book if he wanted.
I walked away down the hall and listened to them argue. I took a quick detour into the maids closet to listen to the rest of the fight. I heard V scream: "At least I'm not FUCKING HIM like you would be!"
her boyfriend has been caught so many times cheating on V and yet he gets pissed to the point of contemplating murder at the thought of her cheating on him. I told her to tell him that I'm gay that would hopefully put an end it all of this.
I'm quite afraid for my life around work now. a few times after that incident V has told me to watch my back because her boyfriend was in the building. he had threatened once before with the previous maintenance guy that he was going to drive by and shoot him dead if he ever saw him. no doubt he's fantasizing about doing the same thing with me.
this whole thing has really started to kill our friendship. there seems to be no connection when we try to chat and she cautions me not to be caught in the area in case her boyfriend is roaming around. So that pretty much killed what was left of my social life.. all because of a jealous control freak. feh. I know how the whole jealous thing goes and at least I have the sense not to taunt him further..
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hmm... well I was hoping to end on a happier note than this but it's getting late and I need to go to sleep to find out what crap comes at me tomorrow at work..
Oh yes! "Happy anniversary D!" there we go! :D *nod nod*. I feel better now ^.^