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I know I haven't updated in a while and I really think that I should just stop this stupid journal. I hardly even use it. But today I'm happy that I still have it. Well to start Thanksgiving was alright. Not the greatest but not the worst either. I spent the day with my friends Rachel and David. David and I played World of Warcraft all day. While Rachel played Fable on my X-Box (bought a new one). For dinner we went to the quicky mart on base and bought some microwaveable food bowls. They where alright, no turkey dinner though. Rachel said that she is going to make the dinner some time this weekend but I don't think I'll be over their house after tonight. I just had a stupid fight with Rachel. She was playing Fable and I was watching. I made a comment about what was going on in the game and she told me that she didn't like when I do that. I stood up said sorry and thought about going back to my game. She said some thing back to me. And I really wanted to tell her exactly how I feel. Why is it that every time I have a fight with some one it always feels like its my fault. I think that I just don't want any one around me so I stop being hurt. I hate being here I just want to be home. I'm so sick of being alone. I have "friends" here but I think they would stab me in the back as soon as they get a chance, hell one of them already has. I had to write this out or I would have gone driving home at 2:30am at probly 100mph in the rain. Not the smartest thing I've ever done, but I have done it before. Take care every one, hopefully your lives don't suck as much as mine does right now.