more of my stupid complaining. do yourself a fucking favor and dont read it
Why are ppl such assholes? why do i set myself up 2 be hurt by them? why do ppl spread rumors? why do ppl try 2 start shit? why do ppl talk shit? why am i so nice to everyone? why am i so gullible? why the hell do i get blamed for shit i didnt do? why do i let my ex get 2 me and make me cry? why is she such a bitch? why do i befriend fake ppl? why cant i look half decent like everyone else on this fucking planet? why am i so ugly? why am i so fat? why cant i get a boyfriend? why cant i get a girlfriend? why do i let my friends control what i do? why am i so bitchy 2 my mom? why am i a bitch in general? why do i hate ppl who dont deserve it? why do ppl hate me? why havent i ended my fucking life yet? why do i care about what ppl think so much? why do i need ppl? why doesnt anyone need me? why cant i have a good life? why do i have 2 deal w/ so much stress? why cant i live in a house? why cant i have a real fucking family? why do i do drugs and smoke and drink and all that shit? why am i a dumbass? why am i so emotional? why cant i stop cryng and tell ppl 2 fuck off? why cant i do good in school? why cant i pass algebra 2? why isnt anyone there 4 me when i need it? why do ppl think my problems r a game? why wont they listen 2 me? why do i listen to them? why do i help them? why do i care? why do ppl leave me? why do i leave them? why cant things stay the same? why did my grandma have 2 die? why did my real mom have 2 die? why was i adopted? why wasnt i left 2 die? why cant i visit my dad more than 4 times a year? whyd he have 2 choke my mom? whyd she call the fucking police? why did the shelter fuck up and give our pets away? why do ppl tell me not 2 hurt myself when they dont really care? why do i want ppl 2 care? why do i want ppl 2 love me? why do i love certain ppl? why do i get crushes on ppl whom i know will never want me? why do i let ppl fuck me over? why would anyone want me? why am i such a fuck up? and why am i writing all this shit in a livejournal when i know about only 2 ppl will read it and barely 1 will care?
I dunno what 2 do anymore. Ive been hurt or fucked over by practically everyone i ever got close 2 or considered a friend even an acquaintance. And the sad thing is, I still don't c what i did 2 deserve it. Its like ppl just target me and decide they wanna fuck w/ my head and w/ my life 4 a little while just 2 c how much i can take. I'm so over ppl, and 2 let EVERYONE know, if i COULD get through my life WITHOUT having 2 deal w/ anyone, i would. But unfortunately in being a human being i need a certain degree of social interaction. I wish I didn't tho b/c I cant think of anyone in my life right now who hasnt brought me pain @ one time or another, nor can i think of anyone who cares that they did it.
Tina, u should feel very happy now. You were right and I was wrong, NOW hopefully you'll leave me alone.
I dunno what 2 do anymore. Ive been hurt or fucked over by practically everyone i ever got close 2 or considered a friend even an acquaintance. And the sad thing is, I still don't c what i did 2 deserve it. Its like ppl just target me and decide they wanna fuck w/ my head and w/ my life 4 a little while just 2 c how much i can take. I'm so over ppl, and 2 let EVERYONE know, if i COULD get through my life WITHOUT having 2 deal w/ anyone, i would. But unfortunately in being a human being i need a certain degree of social interaction. I wish I didn't tho b/c I cant think of anyone in my life right now who hasnt brought me pain @ one time or another, nor can i think of anyone who cares that they did it.
Tina, u should feel very happy now. You were right and I was wrong, NOW hopefully you'll leave me alone.