Dysphoria...
I have been thinking about Dysphoria a bit lately… a lot on some occasions and only a little on others, but a post by Abriel today brought it back to my mind and I wrote this to her, (I don’t know if I could say it as well writing it again so its purity much copy and pasted
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"Dysphoria" is a dark mood, where you are angry, anxious or depressed. What you seem to be describing is more like a Gender Identity Disorder.
It really doesn't sound like anything out of the ordinary, either. You're a strong woman, so you're not going to feel like you fit in with the cookie-cutter girly-girls around you. You're not going to really fit in with the men around you, either, given the plain and simple fact that you lack a penis.
I've always been stuck in that situation and I know a *lot* of women that are in the situation. There isn't any shape shifting or sexual dysfunction involved; it's just a matter of being aware of who you are long before your peers are even start thinking about it.
As far as role-playing men, look at my collection: Talon Karrde, Auron, Carth Onasi, Balthier; see any girls on that roster? It doesn't necessarily mean that I was meant to be a guy or that I'm more comfortable as a guy or that I'm trying to avoid stalkers, it just means I enjoy getting into their heads. I enjoy people seeing me as more than a set of boobs. I know a lot of guys who do the same thing -- playing female characters just for the added twist.
So, stop seeing yourself as Sexually Dysphoric and start thinking more wholesome -- you've got the whole package! ;D
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and I agree with you, I am who I am and I wouldn't have it any other way, when I'm in the right state of mind that is. but even when I'm feeling depressed or insecure there is still that small voice that says, "your fine just the way you are quit trying to change into something they want you to be."
anyway thanks.
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