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Well, I feel like a big giant ass. The "love of my life" isn't sure that he wants to be with me anymore. He's been talking to some fucking slutbag in Australia over...what else? World Of Warcraft. Meaning that he met her in the fucking game. I don't know what I'm feeling right now. Anger? I want to kill him for his stupidity, but at the same time, there's more than just that. See, he could very well die in the next few months, and he's trying to "save" me from pain? WTF?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? I know the problem with his ribs is bad, but good god, he doesn't have to fucking cut me out like that and act like I'll be better off without him! And this fucking broad...I don't know who the fuck she thinks she is, but she better fucking step off and leave him the fuck alone.
*sigh* I don't know what to do. I don't want to lose him, I love him so much....he's the only man I've ever TRULY loved. and now this. WEll, now I know why he's been so hesitant to actually marry me. So that makes me feel really stupid. REALLY STUPID. There's more....he doesn't like my oldest son. My oldest son has issues, and he's been acting out recently. A LOT.
6 fucking years of my life. I swear to god, I'm not dating ever again. Not unless they're rich, with NO heirs. And OLD. But no sex. Ever. I'm taking the money.......that's all I'm after anymore.
FUCK love......it doesn't exist. and anyone who tells you it does is a fuckng liar.
Who knows....it's all up in the air right now, but I could very well be moving.
*sigh* I don't know what to do. I don't want to lose him, I love him so much....he's the only man I've ever TRULY loved. and now this. WEll, now I know why he's been so hesitant to actually marry me. So that makes me feel really stupid. REALLY STUPID. There's more....he doesn't like my oldest son. My oldest son has issues, and he's been acting out recently. A LOT.
6 fucking years of my life. I swear to god, I'm not dating ever again. Not unless they're rich, with NO heirs. And OLD. But no sex. Ever. I'm taking the money.......that's all I'm after anymore.
FUCK love......it doesn't exist. and anyone who tells you it does is a fuckng liar.
Who knows....it's all up in the air right now, but I could very well be moving.