Why do I do this to myself?
It seems that no matter what I do, no matter what I try, I can't get her off of my mind. This is kinda killing me. Last night I had two dreams. In one, I nervously asked her out on a date and she agreed, we had an amazing time and things worked out. In the other, she told me that she'd found someone else, and I was left alone. This really sucks. I hate that I can't let her go. I hate being so emo all the time, and I hate this fucking place. Being here is everything that's bad for me. It's the exact opposite of where I want to be, I'm isolated and trapped in routine. This is kinda like hell for me. Gary and I have been fighting a lot, Mom and I aren't on the best of terms at the moment. Well, Gary and I actually havn't spoken in 3 days now. I miss UC so much it's unreal. I miss Emily so much it's unreal...
But, I guess I'm the crazy ex-boyfriend who's still stuck with these feelings. It really does suck, knowing that the one person you can't stop thinking about could go a week without you even flitting through her mind...
End.
But, I guess I'm the crazy ex-boyfriend who's still stuck with these feelings. It really does suck, knowing that the one person you can't stop thinking about could go a week without you even flitting through her mind...
End.