Conflicted Emotions
So yeah there's a girl that I'm interested in - VERY interested in - she seems to show interest but I'm not sure how to read her at all...It seems like she's interested but then she backs off and when I talked w/ her years back, she was always shy - I just don't know how to read her. She said the next time I'm in the city, I should let her know and we'd do something...and yeah I'm interested. I got her digits and I don't get why I'm so shy...I am NEVER this shy w/ women - sure in a club I am lol - but like online, ask any of the women I've ever dated and they would acknowledge that I am direct, to the point and I usually get frustrated because they aren't interested in me as much as I'm interested in them - or - they want a lot of booty calls - or - they want a sugar daddy w/out any intent of a relationship....But with this girl I want a relationship.
Another part that confuses me - She's skinny and insanely hot - and I'm well...me LOL - I am like 220 and 5'3" and I'm trying HARD to get down to 160 lbs by the end of the year(2011)...But that doesn't help me w/ my face - Just kidding :-P I sorta feel shallow because most of the women I've ever dated were like around 200+, a few were around 300 or more. I don't think I minded but I feel shallow because I'm finding her attractive. Does this make sense? I mean it's not just her looks - she's sweet but I don't really remember much about her from when I last knew her except she was really shy and sweet. Maybe I should just wait until I get another interview there or a job itself there - and read her in person. I'm pretty good at reading people in person usually...Like Voldemort, I'm a pretty good Legillimens. So if anyone has thoughts on how to proceed....I don't want to scare her off or end up a friend with benefits (unless that's all hahaha) - if anything I'll take friends only but I just don't know how to do a normal relationship - My relationships have not been the most normal lol - Liz, Diane, Steph, Maria, Amy
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Ok I'm going to end it here...Ciao Bellos!