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For whatever reason, being on break seems to have caused my anxiety to spike. Probably because I'm not working and know that there are things I could and probably should work on. :/ Also, despite usual amounts of socializing, I find myself feeling emo more.
It's cool 'cause they've finally introduced a character for me to adore. Even though I repeated try to call her Tasmin instead of Tamsin. She's a Valkyrie, which is cool. As such, she's also a badass fighter. She basically has this kind of icy, snarky attitude, which is basically a mask. You see her drop it at various points, sometimes due to magic stuffs, and then she's all loyal and awesome. But she has this tragic vibe around her, like something bad is going to happen (and, well, they've basically said there's something sad going to happen, which has me worried). But, like, you get the impression that her job, which I assume involves taking the souls of heroes to Valhalla/Odin since she's a Valkyrie, causes her pain and sadness. Or has caused that in the past. You also get the impression that she doesn't really have any legit friends (that is being worked on and will hopefully continue to be worked on as long as the writers don't get rid of her).
I feel like her actor does a pretty amazing job with expressions. Like, there's one part where she was like, "Yeah, I decided I needed to follow you to make sure you didn't get killed, likey or not" and the girl she's talking responds with "Likey." And Tamsin's "I don't care about anyone let's joke about it" mask slips as she looks surprised and touched. And then she gets told that she's "one of the good ones" (she's kinda set up as a semi-antagonist. Or at least, she's allied with the group that tends to be at odds with the group the protagonist allies with). And she smiles and is clearly pleased, but tries to mask it by being like, "Well, you're ~really~ bad at reading people" and then she leaves. So basically, she falls into the awesome badass category of people who aren't that trusting/are pretty alone that I can't help but love and want to make happy. Also, she's hot. ;-P And she has a super pretty smile. *is a total sucker for nice smiles*
Another good thing about the show is that I agree with Ami in that they do sexuality well. Mostly in that they don't really talk about it. Like, normally if you have, say, a random couple, people will make it a het couple because there's no real reason to do otherwise. And generally when they don't do that, they have a specific reason and the couple is going to be dealing with queer issues. But they will randomly have a gay couple and the fact that they're gay has absolutely nothing to do with anything and is never mentioned or anything. They're just there, and they're gay. Nbd. Which I like.
Unfortunately, the most recent season has the characters doing and saying some things that either make no sense (other than the "We wanted this drama in the show" explanation), or are just plain stupid. Plus there's this awful air of foreboding around Tamsin saying that bad stuff is going to happen. It's just unclear how bad. Worst case, they kill her off and don't bother to try to bring her back from the dead or anything. Which would make me sad, but unfortunately would also make sense in the story. At least in the eps we have so far, there are some pretty awesome Tamsin moments. That I then tend to watch repeatedly while mentally squeeing over her. Also unfortunately, I've now caught up in the show, so I'm going to have to wait a week for another ep. And who knows how long before the next season. If there is a next season; I don't know if they have one planned or not because I don't pay attention to that kind of thing. In the meantime, I sometimes look online for fics to try to get more Tamsin awesomeness, but this requires finding a good writer. Which I'm not really sure if I'll find. :/ Especially given that I'm lazy.
I find myself in this annoying, bored state. The problem isn't that I don't know what to do to amuse myself. It's that it's hard to do 2 things at once. Mostly the issue with this is that I can't do something involving reading/writing while watching something. I just tune out whatever it is that I'm trying to watch, so that I can actually process my other task. This makes it hard to do something like try to play Fable 2 while watching something 'cause periodically I'll have to stop to read storyline or quest text, so that I know what I'm doing. And pausing video can get really annoying 'cause I often forget to pause and then have to go find my spot again. It's the same issue with audiobooks. :/
Sometimes I wonder if there's something wrong with me that ~just~ watching tv/a move or ~just~ playing a game fails to hold my interest. Or at least feels like I'm wasting my time/should also be doing something else. I've noticed that I don't have this issue playing board games. I guess my other mental functions are taken up with interacting with other people. Although when I watch Lost Girl with Ami, in addition to chatting with her, I'm generally also playing an online game. :x ...which also means I miss some details. :xx I guess the issue partially is related to what sensory channels are in use. Games and reading only really uses visual functions. Audiobooks only use audio. TV and movies are technically audio and visual, but I tend to feel like I don't really miss that much by mostly listening to the show and sometimes glancing back at it/not continuously looking at it. It's also generally nice if my hands are engaged somehow. Manipulating a controller, typing, keyboard controls. So something like cleaning up my room while watching something works.
In completely different news, I'm in the process of getting Mark of Athena, the next book in Rick Riordan's Heroes of Olympus series! :-D I'm excited. The second book ended in a place that was kinda like, "BUT I REALLY WANT TO SEE WHAT HAPPENS NEXT!!!" I also found out that Riordan is planning on doing a Norse series, which I'm also really excited for. I really like things like mythology, and kinda want to read/listen to more stories from a bunch of different cultures, but I kinda run into my above issue with feeling like I should also be doing something else at the same time. :/ I'm also not entirely sure where to find good resources. Hmmm....maybe I should look for an annotated collection type thing that has a bunch of, say, Greek myths listed in a meaningful order for me to read them in and notes about...I dunno, differences between versions of the story or translation things. For the Greeks, comparisons to Roman mythology would be super awesome. I need a refresher on my Greek mythology. And a refresher/more complete viewing of Egyptian mythology. From there, I'd also be interested in Norse mythology and Japanese folklore. I dunno; I think it would be super cool to be able to notice references to these things in stories. Although I still think naming a Bacchus fae Roman is kinda lolwut? (in Lost Girl, Bacchus is a type of fae rather than actually a single god).
It's cool 'cause they've finally introduced a character for me to adore. Even though I repeated try to call her Tasmin instead of Tamsin. She's a Valkyrie, which is cool. As such, she's also a badass fighter. She basically has this kind of icy, snarky attitude, which is basically a mask. You see her drop it at various points, sometimes due to magic stuffs, and then she's all loyal and awesome. But she has this tragic vibe around her, like something bad is going to happen (and, well, they've basically said there's something sad going to happen, which has me worried). But, like, you get the impression that her job, which I assume involves taking the souls of heroes to Valhalla/Odin since she's a Valkyrie, causes her pain and sadness. Or has caused that in the past. You also get the impression that she doesn't really have any legit friends (that is being worked on and will hopefully continue to be worked on as long as the writers don't get rid of her).
I feel like her actor does a pretty amazing job with expressions. Like, there's one part where she was like, "Yeah, I decided I needed to follow you to make sure you didn't get killed, likey or not" and the girl she's talking responds with "Likey." And Tamsin's "I don't care about anyone let's joke about it" mask slips as she looks surprised and touched. And then she gets told that she's "one of the good ones" (she's kinda set up as a semi-antagonist. Or at least, she's allied with the group that tends to be at odds with the group the protagonist allies with). And she smiles and is clearly pleased, but tries to mask it by being like, "Well, you're ~really~ bad at reading people" and then she leaves. So basically, she falls into the awesome badass category of people who aren't that trusting/are pretty alone that I can't help but love and want to make happy. Also, she's hot. ;-P And she has a super pretty smile. *is a total sucker for nice smiles*
Another good thing about the show is that I agree with Ami in that they do sexuality well. Mostly in that they don't really talk about it. Like, normally if you have, say, a random couple, people will make it a het couple because there's no real reason to do otherwise. And generally when they don't do that, they have a specific reason and the couple is going to be dealing with queer issues. But they will randomly have a gay couple and the fact that they're gay has absolutely nothing to do with anything and is never mentioned or anything. They're just there, and they're gay. Nbd. Which I like.
Unfortunately, the most recent season has the characters doing and saying some things that either make no sense (other than the "We wanted this drama in the show" explanation), or are just plain stupid. Plus there's this awful air of foreboding around Tamsin saying that bad stuff is going to happen. It's just unclear how bad. Worst case, they kill her off and don't bother to try to bring her back from the dead or anything. Which would make me sad, but unfortunately would also make sense in the story. At least in the eps we have so far, there are some pretty awesome Tamsin moments. That I then tend to watch repeatedly while mentally squeeing over her. Also unfortunately, I've now caught up in the show, so I'm going to have to wait a week for another ep. And who knows how long before the next season. If there is a next season; I don't know if they have one planned or not because I don't pay attention to that kind of thing. In the meantime, I sometimes look online for fics to try to get more Tamsin awesomeness, but this requires finding a good writer. Which I'm not really sure if I'll find. :/ Especially given that I'm lazy.
I find myself in this annoying, bored state. The problem isn't that I don't know what to do to amuse myself. It's that it's hard to do 2 things at once. Mostly the issue with this is that I can't do something involving reading/writing while watching something. I just tune out whatever it is that I'm trying to watch, so that I can actually process my other task. This makes it hard to do something like try to play Fable 2 while watching something 'cause periodically I'll have to stop to read storyline or quest text, so that I know what I'm doing. And pausing video can get really annoying 'cause I often forget to pause and then have to go find my spot again. It's the same issue with audiobooks. :/
Sometimes I wonder if there's something wrong with me that ~just~ watching tv/a move or ~just~ playing a game fails to hold my interest. Or at least feels like I'm wasting my time/should also be doing something else. I've noticed that I don't have this issue playing board games. I guess my other mental functions are taken up with interacting with other people. Although when I watch Lost Girl with Ami, in addition to chatting with her, I'm generally also playing an online game. :x ...which also means I miss some details. :xx I guess the issue partially is related to what sensory channels are in use. Games and reading only really uses visual functions. Audiobooks only use audio. TV and movies are technically audio and visual, but I tend to feel like I don't really miss that much by mostly listening to the show and sometimes glancing back at it/not continuously looking at it. It's also generally nice if my hands are engaged somehow. Manipulating a controller, typing, keyboard controls. So something like cleaning up my room while watching something works.
In completely different news, I'm in the process of getting Mark of Athena, the next book in Rick Riordan's Heroes of Olympus series! :-D I'm excited. The second book ended in a place that was kinda like, "BUT I REALLY WANT TO SEE WHAT HAPPENS NEXT!!!" I also found out that Riordan is planning on doing a Norse series, which I'm also really excited for. I really like things like mythology, and kinda want to read/listen to more stories from a bunch of different cultures, but I kinda run into my above issue with feeling like I should also be doing something else at the same time. :/ I'm also not entirely sure where to find good resources. Hmmm....maybe I should look for an annotated collection type thing that has a bunch of, say, Greek myths listed in a meaningful order for me to read them in and notes about...I dunno, differences between versions of the story or translation things. For the Greeks, comparisons to Roman mythology would be super awesome. I need a refresher on my Greek mythology. And a refresher/more complete viewing of Egyptian mythology. From there, I'd also be interested in Norse mythology and Japanese folklore. I dunno; I think it would be super cool to be able to notice references to these things in stories. Although I still think naming a Bacchus fae Roman is kinda lolwut? (in Lost Girl, Bacchus is a type of fae rather than actually a single god).