Baby It's Cold Out There
Brrrrrrr. The frost is definitely nipping at the nose and toes tonight. Despite the frigid temps, evenings like tonight are winter evenings I enjoy - the moon just peeking out from behind clouds that scuttle across it and the snow crunching underfoot. A little bit'll do ya and it's time to head inside for something warm to drink and a cozy blanket and perhaps a cozy kitten or two or three that want to snuggle in as well.
I got called into work last night, but only for 4 hours and on the 1st floor. I have never been on first floor except to relieve for dinner. I must say that I like it much better than 3rd floor. First floor are the rehab patients, so most are continent - a big plus in the CNA business. My evening consisted of answering call bells for those wanting more pain meds and those wanting the bedpan or to go to the bathroom. Then it was rounds for vital signs and the remainder of the evening sitting on my ass and answering the occasional call bell. The other CNA I worked with dropped a hint that they were in need of a part-time CNA for the night shift. She mentioned it twice to me. I've never been on friendly terms with this woman - she's not the friendly sort and has always treated me like I didn't exist. When I originally came on the floor she told me that I was supposed to be up on 3rd and "M" was to be working with her. "M" told me different, so back to 1st floor I went and the woman didn't appear to be all that happy about it. However, I answered all of my call bells promptly and didn't need her for anything other than to assist me with a 2 assist ambulation. I helped out on her wing when her call bells were all going off at the same time and she was appreciative of that. Right after that, she dropped the hints to me of the opening. I wouldn't mind moving to that floor as it is much easier on the back and I can get in some study time since I don't have to be constantly roaming the halls waiting to catch someone on the brink of falling out of bed.
I did more journaling on the Star of Discovery. I'm tired of rehashing the same problems I always have. Those things that I start off correcting but gradually lose interest in and slip back into my old habits that have never worked for me in the past. I need to get at the root of the problem that is causing them. Not such an easy task. I asked what I need to do to correct the problems and the answer was Strength. Deep down I knew this but I was looking for the easy answer. Mustering up that self discipline is what fails me every time. I'll have to meditate a bit more on the topic. I did a lengthy meditation the other night to make peace with the demons that lie within and seek to sabotage my attempts to reach my goals. I've noticed a bit more peace and less anxiety, but it is only a day into it and I need to continue to work with my shadow to keep the peace and resolve the inner conflicts.
Chris is now downstairs and looking to go to bed, so I guess I'll head back upstairs and get some study time in.
I got called into work last night, but only for 4 hours and on the 1st floor. I have never been on first floor except to relieve for dinner. I must say that I like it much better than 3rd floor. First floor are the rehab patients, so most are continent - a big plus in the CNA business. My evening consisted of answering call bells for those wanting more pain meds and those wanting the bedpan or to go to the bathroom. Then it was rounds for vital signs and the remainder of the evening sitting on my ass and answering the occasional call bell. The other CNA I worked with dropped a hint that they were in need of a part-time CNA for the night shift. She mentioned it twice to me. I've never been on friendly terms with this woman - she's not the friendly sort and has always treated me like I didn't exist. When I originally came on the floor she told me that I was supposed to be up on 3rd and "M" was to be working with her. "M" told me different, so back to 1st floor I went and the woman didn't appear to be all that happy about it. However, I answered all of my call bells promptly and didn't need her for anything other than to assist me with a 2 assist ambulation. I helped out on her wing when her call bells were all going off at the same time and she was appreciative of that. Right after that, she dropped the hints to me of the opening. I wouldn't mind moving to that floor as it is much easier on the back and I can get in some study time since I don't have to be constantly roaming the halls waiting to catch someone on the brink of falling out of bed.
I did more journaling on the Star of Discovery. I'm tired of rehashing the same problems I always have. Those things that I start off correcting but gradually lose interest in and slip back into my old habits that have never worked for me in the past. I need to get at the root of the problem that is causing them. Not such an easy task. I asked what I need to do to correct the problems and the answer was Strength. Deep down I knew this but I was looking for the easy answer. Mustering up that self discipline is what fails me every time. I'll have to meditate a bit more on the topic. I did a lengthy meditation the other night to make peace with the demons that lie within and seek to sabotage my attempts to reach my goals. I've noticed a bit more peace and less anxiety, but it is only a day into it and I need to continue to work with my shadow to keep the peace and resolve the inner conflicts.
Chris is now downstairs and looking to go to bed, so I guess I'll head back upstairs and get some study time in.