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Ok yea. So I haven't updated in a while so here's whats new. Last friday was adviously the homecoming parade and game. Got stuck with candy detail. Game went by fine hurt my wrist during the half time performanc. Oh well. Saturday my mom decided to go up to the ranch to bring back firewood. Got up there around 4:30PM finished about 5:00 PM. Van was low on gas but we thought we had enough. So up on the steepest part of our driveway to the campsite the van stopped. The trailor filled with firewood dragged us backwards into the woods. We got the trailor unhitched then found out the van ran out of gas. My dad (who had just had surgery that tuesday) had sis drive him all the way up and filled the van. When me and mom got to where the gate is I jumped out of the SUV (we switched cars) the gravity from the angle we were on slammed the door back on my pointer finger on my left hand and broke the nail about 2-3 centameters into the skin. So it's going to fall off in about 2 weeks. So I can't really bend it with out being in hermendus pain. Then yesterday. Whoo boy yesterday sucked. I was benifical friends with Jason and 2 of my other friends nearly bit my head off when they found out. So last night I tried to end it all but that went tru the roof. So this mourning I started cutting again, then chided myself sevirly about how stupid that was afterwards. So I now have 3 nice ugly marks to remind me how stupid and ignorent I am. So in a nutshell I need serius help. Because on top of all that I just lost a really good friend because of my "reminders". So i'm going to go drown myself in chocolate now.
~blessed be.
~blessed be.