Back to good...
Yeah, yeah... I've gone awhile without updating, but not for lack of trying. It's just that each day seems to be the same old thing over and over again. And it's been hard trying to have a positive attitude.
First of all, my husband is back in town. He came back a few days before Christmas. Things have been like a roller coaster where that is concerned. From everything that's happened to sleep schedules to now (since he's been gone so long), I kind of feel like my space is invaded. I know that kind of sounds just plain wrong, but that's how I feel. I guess I feel it even more so since I don't trust him the same anymore.
Second of all, student loans have come back to bite my family and I in the ass. It wouldn't be so bad but I STILL can't find a freaking job. Which goes back to the beginning of this post where I am whining and moaning about my days and the anti-positive attitude. And it's not just finding the job anymore, but the unbearable presence of people at the jobs. I just want to break out in tears from just their presence. However, I would shove all that out of the freaking way if I could JUST GET A DAMN JOB.
Anyway, as I was saying... student loans. Chase finally sends a letter to my dad saying that they are prepared to settle with us for a lump sum of $7,131. ...I call them and talk and they tell me to get ANOTHER loan... How the hell am I supposed to get another loan when I don't even have a job? Not only that, my parents can't get a loan. So, she tells me that I need to figure out something because if we can't do that, then they are sending it to court. If we get taken to court, my dad loses his clearance and his job. (He works in Oak Ridge... like the top secret crap place... but nothing high profile.)
And I'm tired of people telling me to come out and party. Or to come out with them for some drinks and relaxing. It doesn't solve anything and that's money I can put towards food, rent, KUB.
Bleh... so anyway... I'm headed off but I'll probably update sometime later.