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It's kind of odd to be me.
I've been wondering ever since I started the new job about why I just can't seem to make friends and actually keep them. Sure, I try to be nice to people, but, I guess I'm at the point where I'm sick of just letting people in to my world, so I've been approaching others with a complete lack of interest in them, I guess. It feels a little awkward seeing people who have friends, you know? Like I should have them, but, I just can't seem to figure out how to keep them.
I miss the people I used to know at BG, but, it seems like everybody's busy with their own lives, and their friends back home. I guess I never was able to succeed in making friends around this place. I sometimes wonder if I even care. I get enough contact with people (seeing as I'm in sales and all), but sometimes I just wish there was something more to look forward to at night than just coming home, or going over to Casey's.
Stuff's just insane right now. I work more than I thought I would be working, which is good. And I always have my money, which, I really like, seeing as it's one more thing that I can hoarde without feeling at all guilty. I sorta feel a bit lost is all I can really say.