just thinking

Apr 06, 2011 21:33

I work as a home health aide
A lot of my job is anticipating the needs of my client.
When I get to work in the morning my client is asleep the majority of the time and tends to sleep from anywhere between 11am and 1pm. I arrive at 9 and go to work. I wash the dishes, fold the laundry clean a spot at the table. Often before she gets up I'll cut a lemon and have it on the table so when she is up and asks for a v8 she wont have to wait for me to cut the fruit.
When I take her out to an appointment I put her bags together, put what she needs in the car. I can't remember how many times she has asked me to make sure to do something I've already done.
I'm not trying to brag here. I know I'm good at my job. I'm good at my job because I know what my client needs and try to get it done as soon as possible.
When I think about this I have to wonder, do I pay this much attention when it comes to my loved ones?
I think I slack more when it comes to that. There is an element where I know I can relax my attention and they will forgive me if I miss something, so I don't try as hard. When I think about it though, shouldn't I try harder? Shouldn't we all work harder?
I'm not so good a picking up the phone and staying in touch with people. I care about them and love them but I neglect to call them.
More often then I care to admit in my marriage and friendships I think 'what about me?' rather then 'what about us?' or 'what bout you?'
I'm confident in saying I'm not a lone in this but I shouldn't take that as reason to do it myself.

I feel like I need to start paying more attention, trying to anticipate needs rather then waiting for them to be announced to me.
And mainly, I should do this happily and with love.
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