Update
Just to leave an update for everyone. Plans are to still move to Wisconsin. My dad is getting down here Saturday, and we should be leaving Sunday morning sometime. He called the other day, said he couldnt sleep and was getting anxiety attacks cause of all this. I think it's kind of funny. Growing up, I was never good at making decisions; it was always "Yeah that's fine" or "I dont care". Well, this job has been a big decision, and I'm pretty happy that I made one. I haven't been second-guessing it too much, and I'm pretty stoked about all of this. Just kinda ironic, I guess.
Me and Nathan went to pizza night last night. The guy wouldnt let Travis in without an ID, so he went back to the apartment. I swear, that was a lot I had to drink. I wish I had kept going, but I had to drive, so ya know. We went to karoake night at TD's, which was fun for what it was worth. Nathan and Vena were talking to this group of 3 girls. I wasnt even invited into the conversation, so I kinda just hung by the side and chilled. People ask me why I dont like going downtown and this is it. Yeah I have fun when its just my friends hanging out and stuff. But its like as soon as new girls are entered into the equation, I'm not even included in anything. I mean, its not like I had a chance with any of them; I mean, look at me. But still, at least introduce me or something.
Well, anyways, after all that, this redhaired chick that Nathan was hanging on asked him if he wanted to leave. So they did, and I left after them to head back here. Well we get to the bookstore and she says that her car is over by the bank. Nathan fucking turns around and says "Well Im driving with him" and points at me. She kinda looks at him, and says bye and he says bye and we leave. I tried to tell him that he just passed up on a girl wanting to take him home, and like a moron he ran after her but didnt find her. He said she wasnt cute enough. Bullshit. See there needs to be a definite of cute. To Nathan, cute means 1 notch under unbelievably gorgeous. She still needs to be perfect but she can have one hangnail or something like that. For me, cute means shes not ugly. Now I honestly do not care about looks. I think every girl is pretty in their own right. Now, there are girls out there that are just ugly. I'm not trying to be mean. I mean hell, I'm the fucking ugliest guy in the whole world. But there are. And there does need to be some kind of attraction. To me, a girl is cute if there is some kind of attraction, i.e. shes not 500 pounds, and she closely resembles a human being. Anything above that is gravy. But hey, thats me. I'm the one thats gonna be single for the rest of my life, so maybe Im wrong. Who knows.
The thing with Michelle is just weird. I havent really seen or talked to her for like two weeks now. Sure, little snippets every now and then. But nothing real, like it was. I was really hoping that this could have been something more than what it seemed. I dunno. I would have tried. But I dont think she was really into it. It may have felt good for a while. But then I got the job thing, and then her insurance, and the accident. Its just a bad time for her, and I really dont think she wants it spoiled by having me around. Maybe I was just in the right place at the right time, and it had nothing to do with me and who I am. Eh.
I dont know what to do about Ashley either. She says a lot of stuff, and then tends to turn around and say the exact opposite the next day. I mean, I love her to death, shes one of my best friends, but she can be so fucking confusing at times. There are days we run on the same wavelength and everything goes great. And then she can turn around and be totally opposed to something that a few minutes ago she was all for. I just need to sit down with her and figure things out.
Well, those are my thoughts for the moment. Feel free to leave me comments. THE MOVE IS SOON!!!
Me and Nathan went to pizza night last night. The guy wouldnt let Travis in without an ID, so he went back to the apartment. I swear, that was a lot I had to drink. I wish I had kept going, but I had to drive, so ya know. We went to karoake night at TD's, which was fun for what it was worth. Nathan and Vena were talking to this group of 3 girls. I wasnt even invited into the conversation, so I kinda just hung by the side and chilled. People ask me why I dont like going downtown and this is it. Yeah I have fun when its just my friends hanging out and stuff. But its like as soon as new girls are entered into the equation, I'm not even included in anything. I mean, its not like I had a chance with any of them; I mean, look at me. But still, at least introduce me or something.
Well, anyways, after all that, this redhaired chick that Nathan was hanging on asked him if he wanted to leave. So they did, and I left after them to head back here. Well we get to the bookstore and she says that her car is over by the bank. Nathan fucking turns around and says "Well Im driving with him" and points at me. She kinda looks at him, and says bye and he says bye and we leave. I tried to tell him that he just passed up on a girl wanting to take him home, and like a moron he ran after her but didnt find her. He said she wasnt cute enough. Bullshit. See there needs to be a definite of cute. To Nathan, cute means 1 notch under unbelievably gorgeous. She still needs to be perfect but she can have one hangnail or something like that. For me, cute means shes not ugly. Now I honestly do not care about looks. I think every girl is pretty in their own right. Now, there are girls out there that are just ugly. I'm not trying to be mean. I mean hell, I'm the fucking ugliest guy in the whole world. But there are. And there does need to be some kind of attraction. To me, a girl is cute if there is some kind of attraction, i.e. shes not 500 pounds, and she closely resembles a human being. Anything above that is gravy. But hey, thats me. I'm the one thats gonna be single for the rest of my life, so maybe Im wrong. Who knows.
The thing with Michelle is just weird. I havent really seen or talked to her for like two weeks now. Sure, little snippets every now and then. But nothing real, like it was. I was really hoping that this could have been something more than what it seemed. I dunno. I would have tried. But I dont think she was really into it. It may have felt good for a while. But then I got the job thing, and then her insurance, and the accident. Its just a bad time for her, and I really dont think she wants it spoiled by having me around. Maybe I was just in the right place at the right time, and it had nothing to do with me and who I am. Eh.
I dont know what to do about Ashley either. She says a lot of stuff, and then tends to turn around and say the exact opposite the next day. I mean, I love her to death, shes one of my best friends, but she can be so fucking confusing at times. There are days we run on the same wavelength and everything goes great. And then she can turn around and be totally opposed to something that a few minutes ago she was all for. I just need to sit down with her and figure things out.
Well, those are my thoughts for the moment. Feel free to leave me comments. THE MOVE IS SOON!!!