Finally September Ends...
I found myself half wishing to make a new scar, but I don't dare. I'm still upset about losing my record of 7 years without a new cut, only to screw up so righteously this year around May. An ER visit and embarrasment ensued... but stupidity, I whole-heartedly believe SHOULD be painful so I got what I deserved over the incident.
As for today, I smoked 3 clove cigarettes in the rain and somehow the world seemed a bit better. This has just been a lousy month, such a September, I hate this month of the year - it always seems to suck.
My roomie got the car repo'd, the cable and garbage were unpaid for some time causing a lack of entertainment and a surplus of disgusting in the house. The internet could be cancelled anytime, but that at least has a back up plan since I can use my cell phone to access the internet now.
My Cody is gone for the week to his friends' house - I still chat with him on messenger in the early morning, but I miss his voice as stupid as that seems. I just got used to hearing it before I went to sleep, and I find myself sleeping with my phone just hoping he'll call. He goes back home on Monday - not much longer now at all so I shouldn't worry about it.
My parents went to the coast, they were going to see me, but now they aren't and I'm relieved actually. I stress about them coming over every time, I'd rather they just pass me by this trip. My brother made a lame ass excuse why he couldn't pick me up, but again... the best thing is that none of it is my fault so I don't get any guilt trips!
Enough for now...
As for today, I smoked 3 clove cigarettes in the rain and somehow the world seemed a bit better. This has just been a lousy month, such a September, I hate this month of the year - it always seems to suck.
My roomie got the car repo'd, the cable and garbage were unpaid for some time causing a lack of entertainment and a surplus of disgusting in the house. The internet could be cancelled anytime, but that at least has a back up plan since I can use my cell phone to access the internet now.
My Cody is gone for the week to his friends' house - I still chat with him on messenger in the early morning, but I miss his voice as stupid as that seems. I just got used to hearing it before I went to sleep, and I find myself sleeping with my phone just hoping he'll call. He goes back home on Monday - not much longer now at all so I shouldn't worry about it.
My parents went to the coast, they were going to see me, but now they aren't and I'm relieved actually. I stress about them coming over every time, I'd rather they just pass me by this trip. My brother made a lame ass excuse why he couldn't pick me up, but again... the best thing is that none of it is my fault so I don't get any guilt trips!
Enough for now...