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I don't know what to do anymore, once again I can feel my world tumbling down all around me, and once again I see the pattern. This always happens to me in a cycle. Things go great for a while before everything falls apart. I feel great about myself and my life and what I have, I feel like things are finally going to be different this time, but in the end they never are and I end up even more hurt than I was before, even when I didn't think feeling anymore pain, or at least surviving it, is possible. It's always the people that I never think will hurt me, the ones I want to believe, the ones that I finally start to trust when they say they would never do anything to hurt me, these are the people that hurt me the most.