Another long day (long as in very emotional)
Well, I hate to say it but this simply is not working, and it's crushing me knowing that I have to crush someone else, but I suppose everyone is right, the longer I put it off the worse it is going to be. It's just not what I want at all, and I know exactly what I do want but I can't have it, so I guess I'm just going to be miserable either way. Anyway, I went to church tonight already feeling awful. I went inside the main church and was going to sit there and wait for the interfaith meeting to start. I couldn't do it though, I knew I was going to cry. I had to walk out and I went to the teen center because I knew Scott would be there, I was right, and I didn't even have to say anything, he just put his arms around me and held me there, he knew, I just wanted to start bawling. I just felt so good after that, I'm still on the verge of tears but it just makes me feel good to think about the way he held me there, how he understands me and cares, I'm so thankful he and I talked by the big cross on Kairos, otherwise that connection wouldn't be there. So anyways, thanks Scott. Now back to reading...