Well just another Day!?!

[dragonfly_108]

Well Yesterday was an interesting Day I mean I woke up at around 6:30 am (actually I woke up at 2:00am) I couldn't sleep, I feel bad but at the same time I feel more relaxed. Well anyway I went biking with Lovesredwine and mowed the lawn and then I went to see my Dad. Well I got home and Ilea wanted to go to the movies so we went. It was the worst hour and a half of my life. I didn't know what to do I mean I wanted to hold her hand but I couldn't I wanted to kiss her amd hug her but I just told myself nooo! Any hoo we came back home and she wanted to play pool. But I felt kinda wierd and I saw Lovesredwine playing basketball so I jumped out of the car and played because I didn't want to feel wierd as I already felt. at night I went to Ilea's to say goodnight but we ended up talking and crying because I hate being in love with someone that I can't be with. oh well...Hopefully I can live my life the way it used to be. Well we talked about the future and how it wouldn't work if we tried again I wish that I can get her out of my head but I don't want to. I just want for someone to hug me and tell me its okay but no one is here! I can only hope that with time I can forget about the way Ilea and I were together and just remember all the good times we had. I love her and I will always love her! However I must move on...as much as it hurts I have to move on.

Always

Dragonfly_108

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