"apiphany???"

Jul 11, 2005 13:08

Well I have just discovered an answer to a question that I have asked "What Do Women Want???" I never understood the fact that maybe what they want is something that no man will ever have in there life. You see every man that is true in their feelings and is true to their heart always ends up gettin crushed!!! Like take me for example...I have done nothing but try to make a relationship between me and Ilea work but in the long run I know it wont!!!! mostly because she has no faith in herself nor in us. but anyway back to the question...Women want to be with someone that wont care what they look like or how they dress or how they talk. They want someone that will do everythig that they ask without hesitation. They want someone to Grow Old With. But the thing they really desire is for someone to just love them for there mistakes and for there achievements. The only problem I have with any of these things is that as much as I do these things each girl in my life will always want more than what they ask for in the begining. Me and Ilea aren't doing so hot and I know she loves me but she never shows it I mean we've been together for almost 7months now and not once has she ever said "you look nice today, or I love you (before I say it), or even lets just be together for today!" Not once! I mean I always tell her I love her and that she looks beautiful every single day!! I open doors for her I buy her roses for no reason just because I think she should have one. I do sooo many things for her and she never appreciates them! I hate that. I hate the fact that I never see her anymore and the fact that whenever we are together she gets a phone call and that means we have to go or it means that I have to go!!!! I feel like I'm in a loveless relationship where I love her and she doesn't love me. I want to stay with her I really do but if this is the way it's gonna be then why stay??? I love sooooo much and I wish that for at least one day she could show me she loves me. I feel lost and right now I feel like going for a long walk and never seeing her ever again and I hope that I end up either dead or hurt badly so that she can actually come by and see me.

Always

Dragonfly_108
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