Just another Manic Monday
Finally George and I watched "Saw" and go figure....he didn't like the ending. I was a little....wait no....extremely pissed off when it took him 2 hours to get here. He did have the excuse of the traffic being crazy on 275, but you know....whatever. He just needs a cell phone and it would save a lot of frustration for the both of us. It's not even the fact of being late. Since I already got stood up twice, I start getting nervous when he's running late cuz I question as to if he's even coming over at all. For some reason, I don't think we're on the same level. My dad thinks that he's using me as a trophy to say that he's got a girlfriend, but to tell you the truth...he's not very considerate of what I'm feeling. Yeah when we're together, he'll get me a drink, or flowers, or make sure that I'm comfortable. But then he'll turn around and not call me when he knows that I'm expecting him. It's the stuff that he does when he's not around that seems so inconsiderate. It's way too early in this relationship to be worried about being stood up. Yesterday I told him that I felt I had to sacrifice a lot for him and he completely misinterpreted that as there's so many other things that I would rather do than be with him. If I'm not mistaken, that's not the definition. Sacrificing is giving up something I would enjoy because I would rather be with him. But I'm just getting so fed up with times when he'll say that we're gonna do something so I change my plans and he doesn't even have the decency to call me or answer his phone, or even stay awake. With the many times he's stood me up or showed up late or forgot to call, it's leaving a pretty bad impression with my dad. My dad seemed to really like him but I mentioned that my cables still needed to be changed on my car and he blew up and said, "You need another boyfriend then". George is a good guy but he's just a late motherfucker, like Heube said. He's got a job, a car, he's gettin his own place soon. But like the tarot card read a little bit ago....it's either work at the high levels and the relationship on the ground or visa versa. I can't come before his career and I don't intend to but I at least deserve a little consideration after all that I do for him. I drive to his house ALL the time where I don't even feel comfortable because his parents don't like me spending the night. I'll wait and wait for him to show up even after an hour of his supposedly having to be there. I change whatever plans I have to be with him. I sit around and do nothing when he wants to take a nap.
But then I look at him and that look in his eyes make it impossible to get mad. I can see that he genuinely cares about me but I just don't think he realizes how he hurts me sometimes. He's much better than the other guys I've dated but to say the least there are the downfalls of time.
Anyways enough about that....I have to get ready for my calculus class. I'm skipping computer class cuz I just don't feel well enough to put up with that. No work today so I might just lounge around all day and watch movies. Everyone at work is sick so I need to rest my immune system so it can work for me tomorrow.
But then I look at him and that look in his eyes make it impossible to get mad. I can see that he genuinely cares about me but I just don't think he realizes how he hurts me sometimes. He's much better than the other guys I've dated but to say the least there are the downfalls of time.
Anyways enough about that....I have to get ready for my calculus class. I'm skipping computer class cuz I just don't feel well enough to put up with that. No work today so I might just lounge around all day and watch movies. Everyone at work is sick so I need to rest my immune system so it can work for me tomorrow.