masks shelfs
Hay all I am sorry its been a while since my last post heres whats going on in my life, my mind and my heart.
Why do people wear masks? Its hard to tell if someone is showing there true self or just one of the masks they wear. I find myself asking this question at rocky more than I use to. Wondering if the people there are them selfs or a mask they like to wear to hide. I know I did this at first I tried to hide my true self but I couldn't not to them (the cast) I wanted them to know the true me not all of me but who I am what I am about but they don't care and that kinda hurts not all of them don't care but most, the peole who don't know the true me they don't care and they don't want to take the time to know me or anyone eals. But when he shows me he cares and shows me his true self and not the mask he puts on I love him for it.
My heart I just found this out about myself on Saturday night and all it took was a car ride and a good friend. I put my heart on a shelf in a box and lock it away, how did I find this out my lack of wanting a relationship I don't want my heart to be broken so I go out looking for something called love and I look in all the wrong places on purpose because I can't get hurt by something I don't want and I push all the right guys away because they will (in my mind) hurt me (lets face it I could never fall in love with a girl)
Don't get me wrong I want to be in love I do more than anything right now but I am afarde of another heart break. I want to take my heart off the shelf and out of the box I keep it in but trusting it to make the right choice thats hard.
Dance I am taking more dance classes in hopes it will get me to my dream to dance with the worlds best. But there are two problems I am facing the first I can over come my new tattoo I got it on Saturday and it hurts like a bitch and I can't dance untill it heals that was my fault, the second I need a dance partner a male dance partner I am only 3feet tall my dream is hard enuff to do on my own but now I need a partner and where how will I find one my couch says she will help me but I am never going to find one there are no male midgets in dance and a normal sized male who would be willing to dance with me he would have to be out of his mind. But I will keep on dancing who needs a partner not I but if I do find one oh well.
~Dragonfly
Why do people wear masks? Its hard to tell if someone is showing there true self or just one of the masks they wear. I find myself asking this question at rocky more than I use to. Wondering if the people there are them selfs or a mask they like to wear to hide. I know I did this at first I tried to hide my true self but I couldn't not to them (the cast) I wanted them to know the true me not all of me but who I am what I am about but they don't care and that kinda hurts not all of them don't care but most, the peole who don't know the true me they don't care and they don't want to take the time to know me or anyone eals. But when he shows me he cares and shows me his true self and not the mask he puts on I love him for it.
My heart I just found this out about myself on Saturday night and all it took was a car ride and a good friend. I put my heart on a shelf in a box and lock it away, how did I find this out my lack of wanting a relationship I don't want my heart to be broken so I go out looking for something called love and I look in all the wrong places on purpose because I can't get hurt by something I don't want and I push all the right guys away because they will (in my mind) hurt me (lets face it I could never fall in love with a girl)
Don't get me wrong I want to be in love I do more than anything right now but I am afarde of another heart break. I want to take my heart off the shelf and out of the box I keep it in but trusting it to make the right choice thats hard.
Dance I am taking more dance classes in hopes it will get me to my dream to dance with the worlds best. But there are two problems I am facing the first I can over come my new tattoo I got it on Saturday and it hurts like a bitch and I can't dance untill it heals that was my fault, the second I need a dance partner a male dance partner I am only 3feet tall my dream is hard enuff to do on my own but now I need a partner and where how will I find one my couch says she will help me but I am never going to find one there are no male midgets in dance and a normal sized male who would be willing to dance with me he would have to be out of his mind. But I will keep on dancing who needs a partner not I but if I do find one oh well.
~Dragonfly