the movie event
i wonder to myself constantly why i'm writing here. people are going to believe what they want regardless and fiction is far more interesting than fact. it all feels like a bad sitcom. just a bunch of stupid highschool rumors. vaneesa and madeline will you just give it up? you can't win. you took my friends from me. you took my reputation and pride from me. you almost took my sanity from me. hell, you even took the thing that meant the most to me-greg. but i'm still good. what none of you guys get is that i have something you can never take from me. I have christ in my life so i don't really need anything else. i know that i'm loved and that things will get better. so if you two have anything to say feel free to call me. i still love you both because that's the type of person i am. you can say that i'm just faking it with all the christian garbage but it's way more than that. i mean look at me. if anyone went through the same stuff i've been through would they still be proclaiming love to the people who think they're ruining her life? i mean that's not too normal, right? there must be something extra there right? right. but like i said you can beleive what you will. jackie- thanks for understanding that i would never try to take your boyfriend. you're my friend and i woiuldn't do that to you or anyone. i was resting my head on his shoulder at the movie theatre two nights ago. if you have any problem with that i'll stop. i didn't know it would blow up like it did, and for that i apoplogize. i realize i was naive- i should've known vaneesa and madeline would pull something like this. john- i also apologize this whole thing blew up but we both know that we can never be more than friends- not that we would even want to anyways. greg- wow. how can you take someone who is trying to ruin my life word over mine? it seems for a while you've been trying to find reasons to break up with me. if that's what you need to do i'm not going to beg you to stay over something i didn't do. you know that i love you and all i want is you. i've told you and shown you so many times. maybe you're not as old as you pretend to be. i dunno. maybe this is the reason i liked having older friends before. if anyone has anything to say feel free to call. i'm not going to bitch or yell or scream or even ask for an apoplogy if you're to prideful for that. i will do what i've always tried to do- be the best friend ic an be to whoever asks for it. i trust that eventually you guys will come around. until then. -with love-