update
so i remembered this little thing called livejournal, and figured i'd update it. as the only thing i write about in here is my love-life, or lack-thereof (as the time may be), i'll do that first.
it's in the "lack" department. has been, for longer than we've been broken up (which has been for about a month). not that i wanted either to happen... it just did. the first just happened, and then he decided we were better off as friends. or maybe, he decided we were better off as friends, and then i realized what had been going on. or decided that, for him to decide this, a lack must have occurred.
on his side. i was always there, willing to talk, to figure things out if it wasn't right, to make it better. but he wasn't. he didn't want to be. and now... well, i don't even feel like i've got a friend really.
which will probably change, when the semester starts up again, and high school friends go back to their respective colleges. or maybe it won't, because i'll be too damn busy to have any sort of social life except family and horses.
anyways. i didn't mean to be depressing.
it's in the "lack" department. has been, for longer than we've been broken up (which has been for about a month). not that i wanted either to happen... it just did. the first just happened, and then he decided we were better off as friends. or maybe, he decided we were better off as friends, and then i realized what had been going on. or decided that, for him to decide this, a lack must have occurred.
on his side. i was always there, willing to talk, to figure things out if it wasn't right, to make it better. but he wasn't. he didn't want to be. and now... well, i don't even feel like i've got a friend really.
which will probably change, when the semester starts up again, and high school friends go back to their respective colleges. or maybe it won't, because i'll be too damn busy to have any sort of social life except family and horses.
anyways. i didn't mean to be depressing.