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why do so many people use my shoulder as a tissue, but I never have any? ever...I'm always teh lsat one for people to come to to comfort, but they put so much on me...I've only ever talked about my feelings being down to kimmy...and she's so far away...no one's ever been there for me...they offer, but I want someone close...I want to be held...no one ever does...ever has. Jessie's the only one who's ever held me outside my family, but not for sadness...my family hasn't done that...I've always had to hold myself. To wrap myself in my sheets and hope for it to go away. What kind of friend are you? I was on the brink of tears and you left me there sitting all alone. I was trying to talk to you and you up and go...so close to going...no one's ever come to my rescue...