oha!
I really had a blackout yesterday!
Too much alcohol and calming pills ... I only feeled hate, unspeakable hate.
And If I think about, I'm too addicted to the internet now ... and those action of yesterday makes me squeasy.
Hell! .. if I drink alcohol and take pills and be in a those rare phase, I can't control myself.
I only feel hate hate hate.
I FELL ME SO ASHAMED NOW -_-
What I could do now :
1- move along and really go away (hardest way but most efficient)
2- do nothing but let the LJ running
3- come back, ruined all for rest of time
I wish I could make up for it, but I can't. . .
Too much alcohol and calming pills ... I only feeled hate, unspeakable hate.
And If I think about, I'm too addicted to the internet now ... and those action of yesterday makes me squeasy.
Hell! .. if I drink alcohol and take pills and be in a those rare phase, I can't control myself.
I only feel hate hate hate.
I FELL ME SO ASHAMED NOW -_-
What I could do now :
1- move along and really go away (hardest way but most efficient)
2- do nothing but let the LJ running
3- come back, ruined all for rest of time
I wish I could make up for it, but I can't. . .