Halloween and life update

[dragonangel1369]

I would like to thank those people who showed up for our Halloween party this past Saturday. The house and yard looked better than they ever have, we had lots of new decorations and lighting effects, and the bonfire was a very nice addition. Even the wooden tombstones we cut and painted turned out looking great! I was happy to have finally found

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[technoir]

One, I did not know there was a party. I certainly was not invited.

two, I am lazy of late and don't like to leave home to much. Mainly due to a little to much going out of town every weekend. But thats not important. Simply put if I had known there would have been a possibility I would not have shown do to this. I also would not have told you I was showing up if I did not think I would.

three, I don't particularly care if you date rick or not. He seems nice enough at the larps but honestly I have not known him very well. The only experience I have of him away from larps at the few parties I have been at where he was. At those parties he became enough of an ass that I have actively avoided him sense. Perhaps he is a nice, eloquent, and urbane individual when he is not drunk. I cannot say. I to be honest have not made the effort to find out. As a drunk however he has been cause in the past to avoid being around him and avoiding social gatherings that might involve him being drunk.

I believe I have summed up pretty clearly to avoid any confusion. I will add that if you assume people are backstabbing and petty for not showing up to your party, well that is pretty petty in and of itself. I suppose you could measure the friendship of others on party attendance but that seems a trifle shallow and high school. I did not enjoy high school and I am pretty sure you did not have fun with it either, so why are you doing a re-creation here. If your quite done with your drama I think I have shared enough truth for the moment. Have a pleasant Halloween.

sorry.

[dragonangel1369]

I emailed you, but maybe I had the wrong address. I'll have to go and look. I was just really freaked out by nobody showing up, and I have a tendency to take things too personally sometimes, especially in times of great stress and not feeling well physically on top of everything. I'm sorry if I got snippy, and no, my high school career was a living hell. and yes, Rick's a great guy when he's not drunk, which he hasn't been since Angela's last party. he's quit, completely, for well over a year and hasn't touched anything but the occasional single beer every couple of months. I'm not trying to assume anything, but when everybody knows I've done this same party every year the same saturday night before daylight savings time hits ever since I moved up here, it really hurts that nobody gave a shit about coming out to socialize with me. I do understand the emails went out a bit late this year, and I do understand that a lot of people had prior committments and such because of it, but I thought I had more people up here who actually enjoyed hanging out w/ me. it just makes me feel like everybody is actively avoiding me, and that people were showing up just to visit with Kain and/or to get drunk, and that just really hurt my feelings to be made to feel like people were taking sides or shunning me. I realize my rant may have seemed to be directed at certain people personally, but it was not meant that way, and for that I do apologize. now that I'm calm I can approach this more rationally. I'm not a vain person, but I do take this one holiday, and the one party I throw to celebrate it, very personally, and very seriously. call it All Souls' Day, Halloween, Samhain, Day of the Dead, the Pagan New Year, whatever, but it's all the same to me, and it's the number one most deeply spiritual holiday I celebrate any given year. always has been. I'm sorry if my rant was a bit hollow and childish, but after crying myself to sleep wondering why nobody bothered to show up, and worrying about the people who said they were coming then no-showed and didn't even call, yeah. I was pretty pissed off and hurt monday, and I lashed out a bit. I'm only human, and all I can do is apologize for that particular aspect of what I said.