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and so in one day of rain, fog, swim lessons, sewing frustration, reading, napping, seeing freinds, and breaking up with my boyfreind, life has become wonderful and beautiful again. i know. that latter just doesnt seem like it should fit. but in ending this relationship i think ive set us both free. it was a long time in coming i beleive. he said hed had his doubts and suspicions for a long time too. and the truth and meat of it comes down to a horrid cliche: we're just too different. we've got different values, different lifestyles, differnt ideals, different goals, different views. not to mention he eats everything i think is gross an vice versa. this is not to say we didnt get along. we only had about three or four arguments. and they were all cleared up in a few hours of tension. he never did anything to hurt me. he never lied (to my knowlege i guess). he always tried to please me. but for us to work wed have to change, the both of us, alot. and thats just not right. we had a good run. my longest relationship. his second longest. he made for a great first year of college really. he helped me feel much more at home on my own. and im thankful for the insight i gained through this relationship. my mind has been opened more. i have learned alot. ive gained strength and confidence. and i got some great music out of it too. but best of all i still have a very good freind. and so from an end becomes a new beginning. a beginning that, honestly, ive been waiting for for a very long time. the beginning of something i once feared id lost all hope of. and i feel kind of dishonest because of this, seeing as the beginning was really a catalyst for the end. so to explain it bluntly, im starting something with another person. his name is john. he lives in maryland. and it would take pages upon pages to discuss our history. lets leave it at this: ive been waiting for this to hatch, and it makes me so happy that thro not giving up hope, it has finally come to term. at times it was a fight. but now we're finally going to be happy.
and so as you can see this has been a long day. that is the basic of what has happened. if you must have details, see me individually in any manner chosen. i will tell what i feel i can tell. for now, however, i bid thee adiue.
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and so as you can see this has been a long day. that is the basic of what has happened. if you must have details, see me individually in any manner chosen. i will tell what i feel i can tell. for now, however, i bid thee adiue.
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