Another day
So this week and last has been stressful, why? Because of the name change. People down town can't give you the information you ask for. So I ended up going down to the district court twice and nearly a third time, you would think for 140 bones they would be a tad bit more helpful. First I had to find my own paper work/legal forms, second I did the running to the judge’s office to turn in the forms. Last but not least a simple answer of this can take up to a couple of days to several weeks would have been helpful. I hate checking my mail every freakin' day, why? Because they have had problems with people breaking into boxes if they see you checking your mail as if you were receiving money through post.
So with all of this going on I can't really talk to anyone, I'm afraid to talk to the doctor for fear that it would be seen as whining about simple things. Why would I feel that way? Because the people I had been allowing myself to trust make callas comments to me. Even people I can't mention names because I know they read this for the fact that want to know how I am handling things. Truthfully I feel like I can't trust anyone period, telling me I'm emo or giving up because I mention my views on some of the stupid things people have to go through does not help. Fucking listen to me! Stop trying to analyze me and cloud me with titles such as emo or weepy or sensitive.
Look most of you bastards whine about every damn thing, cry about every damn thing! I allow shite to build up before even actually saying anything? Why? because you fucking retards make shitty comments back to me or dismiss my worries as pointless. If I were to turn the tables on you then you act like I'm the villain, none of you realize that you do it to me day in and day out. So that is the main reason I post here, because I am tired of talking to pathetic self-centered humans who pretend to care by saying a few nice things here and now. On a side note I've become a lazy arse and only do weight training. Lucky for me I'm actually maintaining my weight which is ok I suppose but sucks in the long run of wanting to have dropped more.
Of course I get you weight more because you have more muscle mass, fuck that shite I was fit yet only weighed in at 135. Doing the cleanse is out because right now my body acts like it needs to eat every few hours. And if I skip or do just a soup then an hour later I'm getting pretty bad hunger pains. Lol on a side note I was told to come into the apartment office because one of the manager’s college age kids said there had been a guy going in and out of my apartment. Turns out said guy was me, so my binding isn't as bad as I had thought it would be. Lol I still think I have the speed bump and not even close to being where I want it to be. Even if I get comments from people saying it looks fine. OF course these are the same people just a few that I laid trust in only to have them be back stabbing heartless witches.
