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I should really know better than to stay up until *mumble* AM when I have to be at work the next morning at 9 a.m.
I went to practice yesterday, and I realized that I must have left my repetoire notebook in the practice room at Foy Thursday afternoon. Well, isn't that just wonderful? I'm fairly certain that someone isn't going to want to steal a bunch of photo copied classical vocal music...but I'm terrified that they might throw it away or put it somewhere where it will never be found. I also left my actual books, so there's about $40 worth of music laying around somewhere. When I get off, I'm going to run up there and hope that someone just left it right where I did in the room.
I just remembered that I forgot to look into a passport this week. *sighs* Gr. I need to get on that. I've worked to hard to not be able to go to Italy just because of a passport. This trip is actually starting to become a reality now....it's just over three months away. I feel like I can just reach out and touch it. I'm so thankful for the opportunity. I know I'm a loser, but when I thought about it yesterday, I started crying, because I really didn't think I'd have the opportunity to go. I'm so excited! This is such an incredible opportunity.
Before I wrap this up, I'd like to thank those of you who commented on my long entry a few days ago. To be honest, I didn't think anyone would actually read through all of that stuff....but you guys did. The more I get to know all of you, the closer to my heart you become, and I think I'm truly grateful to know such amazing people as you guys. Your honesty and encouragement was appreciated more than you could ever, ever imagine. See, two years ago, I was suffering from severe social anxiety. It's one of the reasons I bombed out at school....I almost couldn't bear to go out and be around people, and when I had to, I thought I was going to suffocate, and I just wanted to die. My life...was so dark and lonely then. There were so many days when I woke up, wishing that I never had to wake up ever again. I lived in that hell for about two years, but I was never at school, so most people never really knew about any of it.
When I think about it now, I've come so, so far. I have people like you guys now- little rays of sunshine in my life, however cliche that may sound. You guys are all so special to me, and I want to thank all of you for your persistence in trying to be my friend for all this time, even when I unintentionally pushed you away. You never, ever gave up, and you continued to offer your friendship. That's the only quality I need in a friend. It's a rare one, and I'm pleasantly surprised to find it in SO many people around me. I am truly honored...to have people like you guys in my life, and I love all of you.
I hope you all have a good weekend.
I went to practice yesterday, and I realized that I must have left my repetoire notebook in the practice room at Foy Thursday afternoon. Well, isn't that just wonderful? I'm fairly certain that someone isn't going to want to steal a bunch of photo copied classical vocal music...but I'm terrified that they might throw it away or put it somewhere where it will never be found. I also left my actual books, so there's about $40 worth of music laying around somewhere. When I get off, I'm going to run up there and hope that someone just left it right where I did in the room.
I just remembered that I forgot to look into a passport this week. *sighs* Gr. I need to get on that. I've worked to hard to not be able to go to Italy just because of a passport. This trip is actually starting to become a reality now....it's just over three months away. I feel like I can just reach out and touch it. I'm so thankful for the opportunity. I know I'm a loser, but when I thought about it yesterday, I started crying, because I really didn't think I'd have the opportunity to go. I'm so excited! This is such an incredible opportunity.
Before I wrap this up, I'd like to thank those of you who commented on my long entry a few days ago. To be honest, I didn't think anyone would actually read through all of that stuff....but you guys did. The more I get to know all of you, the closer to my heart you become, and I think I'm truly grateful to know such amazing people as you guys. Your honesty and encouragement was appreciated more than you could ever, ever imagine. See, two years ago, I was suffering from severe social anxiety. It's one of the reasons I bombed out at school....I almost couldn't bear to go out and be around people, and when I had to, I thought I was going to suffocate, and I just wanted to die. My life...was so dark and lonely then. There were so many days when I woke up, wishing that I never had to wake up ever again. I lived in that hell for about two years, but I was never at school, so most people never really knew about any of it.
When I think about it now, I've come so, so far. I have people like you guys now- little rays of sunshine in my life, however cliche that may sound. You guys are all so special to me, and I want to thank all of you for your persistence in trying to be my friend for all this time, even when I unintentionally pushed you away. You never, ever gave up, and you continued to offer your friendship. That's the only quality I need in a friend. It's a rare one, and I'm pleasantly surprised to find it in SO many people around me. I am truly honored...to have people like you guys in my life, and I love all of you.
I hope you all have a good weekend.