Three Days And Counting
In three days, ryuutchi will go to the Oakland airport and get on a plane to LA where we will attend a rock show ont he Sunset Strip. After the show we have to find our way (without a car) back to the home of our adorable friend jhyanmar and then to LAX for the return flight to SF. We will be attending the concert in SF the following night bring a group that totals about a dozen. I am hoping for a meeting with the band in San Francisco. I have quilts to show them that I have created based on their CD cover but I have not heard if and when that will happen.
But I am feeling guilty because the 'old man' is going in for an angiogram on Wednesday and will have to stay overnight in the hospital. So I am feeling like a "bad wife" for being excited about my trip and not showing concern for his health. I feel like to be a "good wife" I should give up my trip and stay home and worry about him. Now ryuutchi ,his daughter, says I'm bring silly cause he will be fine but she has a stake in all this since it is her trip too.
Now I know he has had this procedure three times before and was fine each time but this weekend I learned about three separate acquantances who were admitted to hospital in the last week with pneumonia, one was released after several days, one died unexpectedly and one is dying. Is this and omen? I am worried about this and and feeling conflicted.
I want this week to be pure fantasy. I want koala_motchi's arrival in California to be uneventful and that there be a good visit with the real family and that we all be able to join with her for an all Cowboy Mouth extravaganza with no down moments. I want to be happy and excited and be able to:
throw my hands in the air, find my heart, find my soul, and scream as loud as I can, and dance like my life depends upon it,
I want to not care about what's buggin me, ....... I don't want to give a damn about Wednesday and I don't want too worried about Thursday.
BUT, I can't. This is the man that I have lived with for 40 years and I should be caring about him and his health.
So what do and how to act?
But I am feeling guilty because the 'old man' is going in for an angiogram on Wednesday and will have to stay overnight in the hospital. So I am feeling like a "bad wife" for being excited about my trip and not showing concern for his health. I feel like to be a "good wife" I should give up my trip and stay home and worry about him. Now ryuutchi ,his daughter, says I'm bring silly cause he will be fine but she has a stake in all this since it is her trip too.
Now I know he has had this procedure three times before and was fine each time but this weekend I learned about three separate acquantances who were admitted to hospital in the last week with pneumonia, one was released after several days, one died unexpectedly and one is dying. Is this and omen? I am worried about this and and feeling conflicted.
I want this week to be pure fantasy. I want koala_motchi's arrival in California to be uneventful and that there be a good visit with the real family and that we all be able to join with her for an all Cowboy Mouth extravaganza with no down moments. I want to be happy and excited and be able to:
throw my hands in the air, find my heart, find my soul, and scream as loud as I can, and dance like my life depends upon it,
I want to not care about what's buggin me, ....... I don't want to give a damn about Wednesday and I don't want too worried about Thursday.
BUT, I can't. This is the man that I have lived with for 40 years and I should be caring about him and his health.
So what do and how to act?