She's not as dumb as you think she is

[dragon_goddess]

I think I'm just hormonal at the moment and pushing things way out of proportion. Something is -realllllllly- bothering me at the moment. Lord knows that I trust Jim but at the same time I find it hard to trust him. I did a very bad thing yesterday and it kinda made me wish I hadn't. I snooped. I looked at the text messages he had recieved from Catlin. I've never met this said Catlin at least to my knowledge but the things she said.....make me very suspicious. Not only that but Jim told me the last time I got suspicious that she was like "a little sister" to him. I don't know if I should believe that because if it was the truth they wouldn't be talking to one another like they do. *pouts* Another thing that really bothers me is that Jim told me not 3 months ago that he couldn't be with me because he didn't feel the same way that I did about him. Then now it's like a 360 degree spin. I'm so confused about this man.... God.. .I just need to talk to him about it and get it off my chest. I know I do.

I just need the fucking balls to do it.

~*M*~