Sitting here...thinking.
So I'm sitting here....thinking about all sorts of things. Not just including the homework I'm doing at the moment. I also have an exam tomorrow, which I'm not perpared for. I just want to crawl under my covers and my pillows and just sleep, and dream that I'm actually relaxed and that I don't have to worry about anything. I wonder why life has to be complicated, can it be easy when it chooses to be? I just hate being stuck here all alone, my friends can't help me from the shadows. I really think God is punishing me for something...I don't know what I've done. You figure by now...something great would happen for me, but it hasn't. I just want to SCREAM out loud! but no one will hear me. Also, I have people keep reminding me about Valentine's Day, I hate the fact that they ask who's my Valentine's. I tell them no I don't have one, they say...oh I'm sorry. And then they say...well you never know, some guy can sweap you off your feet. I'm like yeah...ok whatever! I've been in this world for 21 years...and still nothing. So those people can kiss my ass. This holiday ruins people's life, it keeps reminding us, that we're alone and that we have to have a companion. Or to go out there and spend more money on the people we care about. This holiday sucks. Its just depressing...I just give up on looking around. I just think God is saying I don't deserve happiness. Here's a quote that I found from a bumper sticker, I thought it was funny; so here's the saying: "Star light, star bright, where the hell is Mr. Right?" I thought that was catchy and very funny. The people who know me very well...know what I want or who I want. Which I know it will never be coming true. I just give up, on who I want...if it was meant to be, it was meant to be. I just ask if my friends will support me, and tell me everything will be ok. I just hope there honest and don't lie to me, on the facts of life. So now I'm sitting here...thinking on what's the next step to my journey in life.