To a friend who's slowly killing me....
Why must you do what you're doing? It tears me apart, watching you kill yourself. I've warned you countless times, but it is as if I'm being ignored. I shout, I plead, but you don't listen. Why? Why? Does my opinion hold any value anymore? It's like I've become a shadow of the past- no one cares, and not even my best friend listens anymore. Broken promises- they tear through my heart like broken glass. The way you treat me, I don't even want to be your friend anymore. You made me a promise, and even acknowledged that you've broken it, but still you continue to hurt me. Like I don't matter. Do I matter?
I sit here, the screen of the computer filling the darkened room with a soft glow. I sit here in the darkness and cry. Why? Why must you do this to yourself, to me. It confuses me as to why a few years back you thought your new habit was disgusting, repulsive. And yet now, you accept that habit and refuse to stop. I find it repulsive. I find it depressing. Can't take much more. Like an ancient building, my foundations have begun to crumble. It won't be long now. Won't be long before my mind can't take it anymore. I've found that no matter how hard I cry or scream to myself, it doesn't go away. And you just smile innocently at me when you see me, unaware of the decay that occurs within my soul. I'm all alone...all alone now.
I sit here, the screen of the computer filling the darkened room with a soft glow. I sit here in the darkness and cry. Why? Why must you do this to yourself, to me. It confuses me as to why a few years back you thought your new habit was disgusting, repulsive. And yet now, you accept that habit and refuse to stop. I find it repulsive. I find it depressing. Can't take much more. Like an ancient building, my foundations have begun to crumble. It won't be long now. Won't be long before my mind can't take it anymore. I've found that no matter how hard I cry or scream to myself, it doesn't go away. And you just smile innocently at me when you see me, unaware of the decay that occurs within my soul. I'm all alone...all alone now.