Broken-hearted lovers » Hawke/Anders Fanmix
I played through Anders' rivalmance for the first time recently and it was so sad. Watching him struggle to fight a losing battle with Justice/Vengeance for control of himself with Hawke being helpless to aid him was such a bleak feeling. It stayed with me long after I put my controller down and I started working on a fanmix. It focuses on Anders struggle with himself/Justice, the Chantry explosion and aftermath in which Anders/Hawke are fugitives on the run.
Fanart: 6 by ~GIVEthemHORNS
“You were right all along. I should never have done this. Being with you, loving you, I thought it would make a difference, but he’s too strong. I’ve tried my best. Don’t hate me for failing.” - Anders
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I. Ari Hest - Broken Voices
I'm hearing talk from the corners, I'm reading words that aren't there...
II. The National - Cherry Tree
Don't look at me/ I'm only breathing/ Don't look at me I'm indiscreet/ You're sharp alright/ But no one is asking so leave it alone/Leave it alone/ Can we?
III. Florence and the Machine - Seven Devils
Holy water cannot help you now/ see I've had to burn your kingdom down/ And no rivers and no lakes can put the fire out/I'm gonna raise the stakes, I'm gonna smoke you out
IV. Moddi - Smoke
It's there, it's where it begins/ and it's calling your name/ You've been down there all night now/ in a state that I cannot explain/Behind grey curtains of ash
V. Noah Gunderson - Moles
Lonely are the sheets/ You are naked in the morning next to me/ all those years holding back the demons for the fear/Of the sight of your tears/ Oh, my God/ What have I done? They fill me with holes/ until I don’t know/ until I don’t know...
VI. Daughter - Run
So we lay in the dark/ 'Cause we've got nothing to say/ Just the beating of hearts like two drums in the grey/ I don't know what we're doing/ I don't know what we've done/ But the fire is coming/ So I think we should run
VII. Mumford & Sons - Enemy
Give me hope in silence/ It's easier, it's kinder/ Tell me not of heartbreak/ It plagues my soul, it plagues my soul And bury me beside you/ I have no hope in solitude
VIII. Laura Marling - Night Terror
I woke up and he was screaming, I'd left him dreaming/ I roll over and shake him tightly and whisper If they want you, oh, they're gonna have to fight me
IX. Love Like Birds - Heavy Heart
Your sweater full of tears/ That's cause of me/ Cause I, I cried so hard/ And you held me near/ A salty sweater full of tears/ Cause I, I cried so hard/ And you held me near/ I keep my eyes closed/ And you, you didn't leave/ The truth doesn't matter for now
X. Keaton Henson - Don't Be Afraid
Your love's leaving me loveless/ Please, don't let me go/ The ash falls from my last one,/ down through the snow/ and I won't leave here/ and I won't leave here,/ not until I'm back with you/ And I won't let up/ And I won't let up,/ not until I'm holding you/ Don't let go of my hand...
XI. Birdy - Shelter
I find shelter in this way/ Under cover, hide away/ Can you hear when I say, I have never felt this way
XII. Love Like Birds - Cold Ground
Cause when you came in my heart/ I was born from the cold, from the cold, from the cold/ And now I don't know what to do when you're not here/ I'm out of balance and out of control