Gah
Just blew a job interview as badly as I've ever blown anything. Was utterly embarrassed and shamed. Went home and cried a lot. Then took a nap. Then called my mother and cried a lot about how I am going to be unemployed and broke for the rest of my life, how this much money stress just... weighs me down, all the time, makes it hard to even function in some ways, how I'm watching all my dreams and goals just slip away, how I'll never get back to school with a three-year gap on my resume and no recommendations...
My life is just going nowhere, and every once in awhile it comes CRASHING down.
I'm so fucked up I haven't watched SPN or SGA. How's that, eh? Anyway. I've made the executive decision to do the damn Thanksgiving road trip, because if I give up something I want so bad because of the money trouble right now, I might just fall apart completely. So! And I think I will sit in downtown Chicago and look out over the water and feel the wind. I think... that will help a lot. Not as much as salt water, but a lot.
My life is just going nowhere, and every once in awhile it comes CRASHING down.
I'm so fucked up I haven't watched SPN or SGA. How's that, eh? Anyway. I've made the executive decision to do the damn Thanksgiving road trip, because if I give up something I want so bad because of the money trouble right now, I might just fall apart completely. So! And I think I will sit in downtown Chicago and look out over the water and feel the wind. I think... that will help a lot. Not as much as salt water, but a lot.