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It's been a while. I promise it won't be too long. I just feel full of emtion ten times over right now, and I wanted to write some of it down. My summer has been a complete waste of time, except the trip to wonderful Londres. That was fun. Otherwise, though, I might as well have slept for the past two months or so. I didn't get as much work done as I wanted to, I didn't figure myself out in any meaningful way, I fucked several things up seven ways to Sunday, I didn't "recharge my batteries" as it were, and because of all this, I'm starting out this school year in way worse shape mentally and physically than I ended the last one.
There's a moment in Jeff Buckley's version of "Hallelujah" right at the beginning, before the music starts, when he takes a breath in, and it is possibly the most gut-wrenching sound I've ever heard. I hear it, and I'm immediately transported to every bittersweet moment in my life; In that split second, I relive all of those wonderfully terrible times, times when I felt at once horribly sad and elated beyond words, and then I feel totally drained.
It's not supposed to feel this way. This isn't the way it is in the stories and songs, anyhow.
There's a moment in Jeff Buckley's version of "Hallelujah" right at the beginning, before the music starts, when he takes a breath in, and it is possibly the most gut-wrenching sound I've ever heard. I hear it, and I'm immediately transported to every bittersweet moment in my life; In that split second, I relive all of those wonderfully terrible times, times when I felt at once horribly sad and elated beyond words, and then I feel totally drained.
It's not supposed to feel this way. This isn't the way it is in the stories and songs, anyhow.