kitteh
i'm planning on moving to vietnam in 7 months so i've kept myself free of relationships.. i've been saying "sorry, i can't have a relationship right now; going to move soon.." for like a year.
and it sucks.
it's been 3 years since i broke up with my last boyfriend. it took me about a year to fully start to fade that experience and prepare myself to open up to someone again.
but then i started school with a FURY. like i began my major and minor courses last fall, and i'll finish this fall. so all of my time was pretty much sucked up by school.
i finally have a month without any classes (just work), and i'm ACHING for something real with someone. yes, i have a couple of regular fuckbuddies with an occasional random thrown in, but i want that romance, i want that rush, i want that uncertainty that makes life just that more complicated, haha.
but i can't. i won't let myself hurt anyone by allowing us to fall into something before i jet off to foreign countries for no one knows how long. UGH.
i'm excited for the horizon, but the present feels hollow.
and it sucks.
it's been 3 years since i broke up with my last boyfriend. it took me about a year to fully start to fade that experience and prepare myself to open up to someone again.
but then i started school with a FURY. like i began my major and minor courses last fall, and i'll finish this fall. so all of my time was pretty much sucked up by school.
i finally have a month without any classes (just work), and i'm ACHING for something real with someone. yes, i have a couple of regular fuckbuddies with an occasional random thrown in, but i want that romance, i want that rush, i want that uncertainty that makes life just that more complicated, haha.
but i can't. i won't let myself hurt anyone by allowing us to fall into something before i jet off to foreign countries for no one knows how long. UGH.
i'm excited for the horizon, but the present feels hollow.