Oh, fucking, no way...
You know what? I'm tired of this little charade. Deep deep deep down I may still love Megan, but I am not going to pretend anymore like it actually affects my life. I haven't seen her in...what 2 years now? I don't talk to her, and she's not on my LJ friends list.
And the reason is not because I'm still so desperately in love with her. It's because she fucked my life up. She was one of the most influential people in my life, and one of the first girls I ever loved. And fuck, during high school, she was one of the few people I could talk to. And then she goes off and pulls that shit with me, Chris and Curt? And I forgave her. Then. But it's along time past then and I've had time to think, and you know what? A certain Vox is right: She fucked us all, and Curt just happened to make out the best. I don't need to deal with her anymore. I sent her a message last night, and I told her I couldn't talk to her because I still loved her and that it was because she was with Curt. After spending, oh, the whole night thinking about it, I realized that I can't talk to her because she's psychotic, and again, ruined part of my life. So, she can honestly take her boyfriend, who, for future reference, I will refrain from insulting, but more along the lines of pitying, and go off and die. I'm sick of this masquerade that I still care.
PEOPLE
I STOPPED CARING ABOUT ANYTHING A LONG TIME AGO.
If I care about you, or something, you'll know it.
And I'm leaving this public, so she can read it.
And the reason is not because I'm still so desperately in love with her. It's because she fucked my life up. She was one of the most influential people in my life, and one of the first girls I ever loved. And fuck, during high school, she was one of the few people I could talk to. And then she goes off and pulls that shit with me, Chris and Curt? And I forgave her. Then. But it's along time past then and I've had time to think, and you know what? A certain Vox is right: She fucked us all, and Curt just happened to make out the best. I don't need to deal with her anymore. I sent her a message last night, and I told her I couldn't talk to her because I still loved her and that it was because she was with Curt. After spending, oh, the whole night thinking about it, I realized that I can't talk to her because she's psychotic, and again, ruined part of my life. So, she can honestly take her boyfriend, who, for future reference, I will refrain from insulting, but more along the lines of pitying, and go off and die. I'm sick of this masquerade that I still care.
PEOPLE
I STOPPED CARING ABOUT ANYTHING A LONG TIME AGO.
If I care about you, or something, you'll know it.
And I'm leaving this public, so she can read it.