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i havent been on here in a while...havent really had the time. anyways were back from tour...it was pretty awsome...everyone in canada is fuckin hott!!! damn...esp those dudes runnin around with blue mowhawks haha! umm yea so im still staying at cassies place...7 days left to go till im out of here. its kinda sad...mostly cause i have so many thoughts runnin through my head and so many things i wish i could have done different. but if things were ment to be it should all work out in the end. my head has been spinnin the last few days...ive done a lot of thinking and been trying to fix a lot of my issues and stuff. leaving here with things not solved would suck a lot...since this person is deff really really awsome. blah it fustrates me how much i had to fuck everything up...but shit happens and i guess however things end up is how they are supposed to be. yesterday i dyed my hair...and today i took cassie and her mom to friendlys...and i got my hair cut...its not that big of a differece...mostly just my bangs lol they look a lot better now that they arent taking over my face lol. tomorrow should be fun...i havent really talked or hung out with him for a while and im deff looking foward to it. so ive been thinking about this whole nebraska thing...and while it makes a lot of sense...im doubting it at the same time. its the easy way out for now...and that is kinda wut i need right now but so many thoughts are running through my head. i wish i could feel the way i used to...i miss that feeling a lot...but i doubt there is little i can do about it now...but i sure as hell can try...and god damnit im gonna try. i know its not gonna be easy at first and i have a lot of ground to make up...but im gonna fuckin try. and i sure as hell cant do that in nebraska. but im gonna change the subject before i say to much more cause i already think ive said to much.